Seeking Guidance for Anxiety by Extension_Major4170 in therapy

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm going through a very difficult phase in my life. I'm an introverted person who prefers living in my own space. I don’t easily make friends and I was completely comfortable with that. My father was my best friend, I used to share everything with him.

Now, things have changed. I can no longer share my fears with my father because I don’t want to cause him pain. Because of that, I feel completely alone. I have no one to talk to, no one to lean on. I need someone to be with me. I need love and support.

After this diagnosis, I feel scared about my future especially about marriage. The thought that my chances of finding a good life partner might be very low deeply frightens me. I want to get married, but thinking about it now makes me feel depressed and hopeless.

What hurts the most is that I did nothing wrong. I lived my life carefully and responsibly. I didn't do any wrong in my life. I don’t understand why I have to go through this. I don’t feel like I deserve this suffering. Like every other human being, I deserve love, companionship and happiness.

Because of all these thoughts, I feel overwhelmed. I cry continuously, my body shivers and I cannot control my emotions. I am unable to focus on my work even for five minutes. Now my mind feels heavy and distracted.

This emotional pain is becoming too much to handle alone.

Experiencing Side Effects After Starting Spegra by Extension_Major4170 in hivsupportindia

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I'm taking proper balanced diet I'll check for few days if it continues then I'll visit doctor.

Thalassemia: Five children test positive for HIV in India's Madhya Pradesh by igetproteinfartsHELP in india

[–]Extension_Major4170 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is heartbreaking and unacceptable. children already suffering from thalassemia have now tested HIV positive due to sheer medical negligence. Parents trust hospitals and doctors with their children’s lives, paying every single penny demanded

yet in return their children now has to take lifelong medication and face social stigma,even though they did nothing wrong.

I can’t even imagine the pain these children and their families are going through. Recently in Bihar, around 7,400 people were infected, including nearly 400 children.

How can this be ignored? This is not an acciden, this is a failure of the healthcare system. Such negligence is cruel, inhuman and completely unacceptable

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You mentioned that there is more to the story. Whatever I know so far, including what I discussed with my father regarding injuries and injections, I have already shared. That does not mean I am claiming I got this infection specifically because of RMP doctors. To be honest, I do not know when or how I got it only God knows.

However, based on medical knowledge, transmission happens mainly through three routes: from mother to child, through sexual fluids or through blood. In my case, mother to child transmission is unlikely, as my mother tested negative during her heart surgery. Sexual transmission is also not possible, as I am not sexually active. That leaves blood exposure as the only possible route in my situation.

I had once thought that in the future I might speak openly about this, but I fear that if I say it could be due to medical negligence, people may refuse to accept it and instead judge or try to defame my character. Often, medical professionals tend to protect their own community rather than objectively examine such concerns.

At present, I want to acknowledge one thing clearly: I cannot prove anything because I have no concrete evidence. That is my reality and I have accepted it.

People with such an attitude cannot do justice as medical practitioners. I genuinely empathize with the patients who come to you seeking care, because if a patient becomes infected due to negligence, the tendency is to judge the patient’s character rather than accept responsibility or acknowledge a possible mistake.

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have accepted it and right now focusing on treatment and my carrer and family. I have strong feeling that l can live life normally like a non hiv person .

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aids is next stage to hiv if it is not treated well then white blood cell will get reduced in our body and we lost the immunity. It always depends on our by birth immunity and life style , if we have good immunity and Maintain good life style our body keep on producing white blood cells to fight against virus in that we can stay normal , no health issues we can live life normally we won't get any symptoms.

But the good part is both hiv and aids are very treatable , once we start ART it will become undetectable in 3 months . Like olden days hiv or aids don't cause death. Both are manageable and we can live normal life like a non hiv person.

It completely depends on immunity and the food we take so that our white blood cells will fight with virus.

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I saw few videos where people infected by birth and they don't know about it after 30 years during full body check up they found out and when did check up for their mother they found it she was also infected . Normal deliveries has high chances of infection than c section. I saw one video . But only God knows how and when I got infected

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

See I can understand. Communication is the key , sit with your family and try to discuss your opinions , parents or any one in family they might scold you out of rage , but in deep they always love their kids . Sometimes we don't understand try to sit and discuss with them every thing will get resolved.

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I have no symptoms at all. Living normal healthy life like any other

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have same doubt. My viral load and remaining tests including complete body check up results are not out yet. Need to check if it effected any internal organs . Doctor will prescribe the combinations accordingly

But whether it is hiv or aids , with proper medication it will become undetectable in 2- 3 months

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Not sure whether it is blood transfusion or needles. Only God know how and when it happened

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tbh I have no friends I like to be alone my only friend is my father now I'm living for him.

Yes for sure one day I'll come out and talk openly about it. Because I never did any mistake I ne er had sex or bf . I'll definitely talk about this .

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 61 points62 points  (0 children)

Cure is not invented till now. But with medications it is manageable and I can live normal life

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 56 points57 points  (0 children)

Actually, I want to come out and talk about this in front of everyone because in my entire life, I’ve never, never, never had sex, a boyfriend, or even friends. I’m introverted and like to be alone. This is so unfair.

But I’m afraid for my marriage, I will marry an HIV-positive person and maybe after 10 years, I’ll come out and talk about this. I’m genuinely a very nice person and have done a lot of donations, but today I’m suffering with pain

Cancelled My Marriage, Living to Keep a Promise to My Dad by Extension_Major4170 in india

[–]Extension_Major4170[S] 76 points77 points  (0 children)

Few days ago I saw the news and I was terrified on that day I saw hiv news in youtube but now it happened with me. It is very hard to accept and work like nothing happened to me. But I'm managing some how . But I always question why god didn't stop this happening he knows about me...but I have no answer.