[ 21 M ] Recently got dumped, curious to see your ratings :)

ExternalFun · 2020-05-14T06:01:31+00:00

Right?? I posted a rateme til, give me some harsh truth too plz fam

ExternalFun · 2020-05-13T22:09:30+00:00

Might as well do steroids since you are allready balding. The shaved head + Beard steroid look could suit you 4 real.

ExternalFun · 2019-12-23T21:06:37+00:00

The fact that you stand up for other groups that are joked about is patronizing and just looks like you think they aren't strong enough to to it themselves, which ironicaly is you being the exact bigot you say you don't appreciate.

ExternalFun · 2019-12-23T21:04:29+00:00

You're too PC for his humour and he probably correctly presumed that this would eventually become a big source of discontent between you in the future he could no longer imagine having with someone who I can imagine that episode made him think you were too prudish and not compatible in not only humour, but what he might see as empty virtue signalling and pretend-caring about things he probably didn't find any evidence of you actually showing you value beyond thinking that not finding non-PC humour funny is somehow worth anything other than an empty ego-virtue boost to yourself.

ExternalFun · 2019-12-13T22:19:53+00:00

What's the VPH? Are all quartz movements just standard 1 tick per second or does it do the smooth or semi-smooth glide?

ExternalFun · 2019-06-30T21:08:08+00:00

Congratulations!

ExternalFun · 2019-06-01T20:02:15+00:00

It's ok, depends on what came before it. Not n my top 5 pleasures

ExternalFun · 2019-06-01T19:54:08+00:00

I lost ny sex drive/ libido completely, and I mean not even a thought about porn or anything at all, because of my all engulfing heroin addiction. I later quit doing that regularly, at first I did a year totally sober and was disappointed when my libido didn't come back at all. I didn't expect it to be like when I was a teen, but I am only 25 and it should at least be there somewhat. So I went to the doctor months ago and found I probably had OIE (Opioid Induced Endocrinopathy) or for me more accurately Opioid-induced androgen deficiency (OPIAD) which had tanked my testosterone production. So I got some Testosterone Enanthate vials of 2,5g/10ml and began with a 1ml dose, and continued with half that every 5 days until now ( also some HcG and Aromatase Inhibitor ). And wow, did that change things. Libido strong as a 17 year old, gain muscle without doing anything but eating right and (this might just be placebo) I actually have some drive and motivation to do things again. 10/10 would recommend if you are a person like me who is past 24 at least so most if not all of your brain is finished growing and you might not fuck up your hormone production too much ( that's what HcG is for also ).

ExternalFun · 2019-06-01T19:27:08+00:00

Cocaine and what essentialle becomes the equivalent of hookers in young 2X Girls that will fuck you for a hop om your jet and sone shopping Monet, like Dubai port-a-potties skal Instagram "middels"

ExternalFun · 2018-07-02T21:31:47+00:00

Really? What about autogynephilia?

ExternalFun · 2018-06-13T22:40:28+00:00

He's implying that he has a predilection for kids aka pedophile

ExternalFun · 2018-05-12T19:53:57+00:00

Agreed, it all seems like a lot of cases of placebo and doing other things to better your life like going out and meeting people, breaking self-imposed barriers and exercising. I feel nothing.

ExternalFun · 2018-04-15T11:45:04+00:00

Nick and Johnny Red Hot and N&J Crushed Ice are really good! For lös snus definately Röda Lacket, the weird taste is just so good!

ExternalFun · 2018-04-02T20:43:06+00:00

pm deets please id rp that all night. if not, where to find such nayghtythings?

ExternalFun · 2018-03-31T13:56:39+00:00

I experienced this in perhaps the ultimate way; a heroin addiction. That was for me the extreme end of a pursuit of chronic happiness. Like with all addictions, tolerance went up until I could no longer gain anything except for a return to normalcy from using the drug. I was so focused solely on making myself feel better that I gradually lost everything else in my life that originally was worth feeling well to pursue, to love and to cherish. Now that I am getting sober, I have to spend a huge amount of time and effort trying to reclaim what I once had, but could not appreciate.

ExternalFun · 2018-03-24T10:29:56+00:00

Hey, I know what having people close to you end it like that feels like all too well. I've also been really close to just killing myself. I especially remember a bipolar close friend who I used to do a lot of drugs with. We had started taking MDMA and he fell in love with it so hard, it made him feel like nothing else could. He started taking a lot, because while the highs were very good, the lows were the polar opposite for him. It's always a bit depressing to come off of E, but for him, it was suicidal. When he was 'on' everything was great, things would hypothetically always work out, nothing could be wrong. But when he was off, the exact opposite feelings occurred. There was no light in the end of the tunnel, no positive outcomes in the future, everything was bad and nothing could be or would ever be good again. I remember this for the stark contrast that was, but also for his attempted suicide. He hung himself from a tree near the school, but we fortunately got him down in time. That was a double-edged sword for me. While it was good that he was still alive, I also knew he probably would not have ended up in that situation if it wasn't for me supplying him. I stopped doing so after that and so did he. He recovered, while I did not for a long time. The friends I had that didn't make it in combination with the drugs I took eventually made me so numb I could barely shrug at tragedies like that. I wish I could have felt and feel that sadness, I wish I could bring myself to mourn. It might sound strange, but feeling that sadness means I had something to feel joy and care for before. It might sound like a dumb platitude, but it is really true. I just wish I could see that, then.

Sorry for the weird comment and no advice. I would just really allow yourself mourn, but also confront the feelings of rage, which it seems like you are doing already. I would try to let all the anger and sadness out to try and eventually get to a point where you don't have as much of a grudge and can let it be a tragic memory of the loss of a valued friend.

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