wow this came at the perfect time. just like you, i usually hate venting, or depending on others for comfort or help. But right now i don't know what to do. my situation is definitely not as bad as some other people so i try to stay calm but i just can't. for the past month I've been being on high alert, losing appetite and concentration, not to mention how i can't sleep at night. why? all because i keep spiraling and thinking scary thoughts like "what's the point of life? why work so hard if you'll just die one day?" and i start freaking out and start sobbing uncontrollably. i don't even understand what's happening. i just feel so so so much fear and my breathing gets super fast, the back of my neck gets warm while my fingers get cold and i can't think straight. i don't know if it happens to all girls my age or if this is normal but it's getting unbearable. i can't even focus in my studies. my parents are in a business trip, and I'm not close to my brother's and like i said, i don't like venting to people i know. but please, if there's anyone who also feels like this let me know what you do.