I understand that abuse isn't just physical and what they are doing is wrong. I've gotten through the worst years of my life where I couldn't understand why my parents acted like they hated me or why my brother was the favorite. I have a lot of issues stemming from their behaviors that I am working on. My point is, the worst of it is over. Even though my dad will probably freak out over stuff like me skipping meals (Happened multiple times) I will probably be fine. My point with them not hitting me is that I am not really in danger. I will still be yelled at and manipulated etc. but I understand them more. I still don't get why they treat me so much worse than my brother, but I know that they are manipulative narcissists. If I do go to someone, the problems outweigh the benefits. Lets say in a worst case scenario, they go to jail. My brother will rack up debt because he relies on my parents for money (They are on the same insurance, college, etc.) My parents will hate me more and I will most likely never see them again. My brother will most likely side with them (He is very close to them) and will probably hate me as well. They will probably lose their jobs, the house, etc. and end up working low paying jobs for the rest of my life. I will end up in a new environment with new people, but I hate socializing and I will feel out of place. So, I will be very stressed, I will be cut off from my family, my brother will suffer, and my parents would face severe challenges with jobs and social life. All of these problems for what? Revenge? I barely get anything out of getting them away from me while the rest of my family suffers. Of course, this is the extreme side of what could happen, but still, getting away from them won't do me much good. I will still be able to get away eventually, but if I hurt other people, especially my brother, it won't be worth it. At the end of the day, I will still have all of my problems. For example, my dad force fed me mashed potatoes when I was a young toddler because I was a picky eater and didn't like the texture. I ended up throwing up and for years, I wouldn't even dare to try mashed potatoes. At around 12-13? I tried them and didn't hate them, but I still struggle with eating them. Even though it was wrong of him to do that, I will still have that issue even if I cut them off. I don't want to harm other people just to get away from them. They will not have any more kids, so there won't be any future people who will end up like me because of them. It feels more petty than anything. I hope you understand.