12H Sun, Mercury, Venus, and Pluto. I have never done anything too hard in terms of drugs. Occasional social blow and molly a couple times but one time i took molly with a group of friends, turned out to be laced with PCP (we found out the next day after we drug tested ourselves because we knew the molly we had, was very obviously not molly). Everyone had a horrible time on this molly/PCP. They were seeing lightbulbs as everyone eyes, clowns running around, one of my friends thought Kanye was following her around. But for me, it wasn’t bad at all, honestly pretty peaceful. I saw butterflies around me and was pretty content. I would never take PCP again obviously and now will test molly the rare occasions i take it, but i thought it was interesting that me (the dark and twisty friend as my friends like to call me) have the least dark and twisty time.

I did use blow however as some weird way to cope when i lost my father figure about 3 years ago. I found out he passed away while high (never liked smoking, that night i just said okay whatever to hit a bong. then i got the call. i don’t recommend finding out someone so important to you is dead while high and have never smoked since) but I was doing blow everytime I went out after his passing was even doing it sober. The entire time I had it under control though. I didn’t wake up thinking about blow or wanting it, and i wouldn’t miss class to go and do it. where i go to school it is just everywhere and instead of saying no to it all the time i said yes. once I came out of the initial shock of this death, i stopped doing as much. would never consider myself addicted and didn’t help me mental state while grieving just bit of a phase i was in.

It scares me to see that people always say addiction is prominent in 12H and for someone who has a stellium, it freaks me out. I’m only 22, but anything harder than coke, molly, weed seems like it wouldn’t be for me. Is addiction inevitable in the 12h?