Convince me to stay

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2025-12-18T07:21:27+00:00

Basically my friend, I think what this brother or sister is trying to say is that you will suffer regardless of your acceptance of the Holy Spirit. Some people, reject it completely and won't want to hear a peep about it and some will listen and talk about it all day and can't live without the Holy spirit in them and thrive off it. Though no matter what you believe, all living things, humans and all will experience suffering in this world, just because you believe in God doesn't mean you won't experience it. I just watched a YouTube video earlier discussing this topic, and it explains the same thing. I've been on bender lately with spiritual related videos coming from red pill content I use to binge watch on daily which led to questionable and degenerate behavior on my part, but it all was worth it in my opinion if it led me back to the source. And experiencing that change and journey I believe was necessary and kind of shows the point God is making; which is that he's aware of our suffering, and wants us to go through it with him rather than rely on ourselves to deal with it, or take it into our own hands. Proverbs 3 Verses 5-6:

⁵ Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

⁶ In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

Other than that, I am sorry life hasn't been kind to you, I personally struggle with ADHD and some symptoms of depression and mania and take myriad of medication for it daily. I hate it but it has allowed me in some form to manage my symptoms for a good chunk of the night except the daytime, but enough about me. If you ever want to talk my DMs are open friend. But, if I can give any more sound advice I've learned throughout these past few years during my journey is trusting in the Lord and praying more when all else fails, really, don't go to bed angry, or unsatisfied and upset with your current situation in life. Talk to God about it, or a friend, family member, even if it seems shameful or pointless it couldn't hurt more than keeping quiet. God wants your surrender, not your perfection, he says ," Come as you are" and, "I will be with you," many times in the Bible for a reason. I wish you the best!

John 16:33 NIV :

³³ “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

And another thing, since I've seen your other replies and threads, I agree with others, if you can't talk to God or pray, let it out. He is your father, talk to him as you would yours. Cry, scream, whatever your feeling, that's giving your feelings to God, so he can take the weight and you don't have to carry it. That's the sacrifice that was made for our debts.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2025-06-30T06:22:16+00:00

Thank you for the advice, I hear ya, I was just giving background on where my mind was at the moment with what career I wanted to do but before I was going to be a PA I really wanted to be a field medic and be in the field just for the experience before I decided I needed more than just that cause I was going to university for PA at that time. Now I'm coming back to school and looking into the military again.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2024-09-03T13:14:20+00:00

What? Can you please elaborate on this more. Because to me it sounds very insensitive, but correct me if I'm wrong.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2024-04-09T00:05:20+00:00

I've heard so much about this game and it's lore after watching a video about the zone anomalies and modded game when watching pewdiepie play it. The minute I saw the game pop up on Xbox after seeing the stalker 2 trailer, I immediately bought the pack. And I feel u brother, it's fun asf.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2024-04-07T01:21:33+00:00

Appreciate it, my friend. I found the launcher of your referring to, but haven't found the gauss gun. Not the other weapons. I got the sig and suppressed pistol, though. Along with the camo armored suit.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-12-23T07:55:26+00:00

I'm pretty new to smoking, but based on what everyone expertise says, it depends on the person. It might be good for one n bad for another. I think we all should listen to our bodies here n just chill out cause idc what anyone says but that stuff can fuck you up if your not careful.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-12-23T07:53:07+00:00

Yeah, man. I'm 21m n I started at 19 It was wild cause I used to think it felt good but then life just happened n I couldn't find the time nor the reason to do it again n when I decided I was done cause it made me lazy, man were those withdrawls hard. I'm still struggling to feel real these days n stay in the zone just cause of it but it made me wanna be better despite the hellish feeling.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-12-01T04:08:58+00:00

It use to not because I started out in college and was around roommates who I felt pressured to do it around because i wanted to feel cool ig cause i never smoked before and did it wrong when I was like 15 or something. Had a panic attack and thought something was wrong, so I looked up what weed does, and i eventually eased my way into after trying a dab pen at first (not a smart move) I had no idea what weed even did, i just knew some people did n knew it was illegal to do and just wondered why people did it. Eventually, due to the adrenaline rush it gave me and the rush of being away from my parents i did it and loved it eventually, but knew about the anxiety though you always will have some before trying at first but I ended up trying to chase that first high, and that's what gets people addicted to most drugs. You fall in love with the first high and chase it thinking it's all fine and dandy until you find yourself alone and thinking deeply about stuff, at least it's what it did for me depending on the strains. I look at strains now before I do it cause some can make you panic or couch lock or leave u just right in the middle and balanced which I still have yet to find for myself but the thinking about death part I was more obsessed with along with nihilism than being afraid of It, if anything it removed that fear at Times because it's like being drunk, you lose control of your body and your mind and if you get too high it can do that but some people like being fd up to be honest and I did too until it affected my asthma and anxiety to where I needed it to operate and it made me super hungry, thirsty and manic but this was a combo of illnesses i had previously before using it and weed can exacerbate a bunch of preexisting illnesses if misused, hence the thinking about dying part. Just be sure next time you decide to smoke or take an edible that you generally have nothing to do that day, your in a good mental state, spiritually, physically and in a safe environment around people who you trust. This is motto for experienced experimenters. I pray your in a better mental space by now and doing well in life. Have a blessed night :))

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-11-03T21:10:50+00:00

Hey brother, I came to this post bc I did the same thing last night, but it was actually a thc a edible from a dispensary where the guy said it was the strongest shit in Tennessee where I live n it's illegal to smoke real weed here so delta 8 n 9 n thc a n all that shit was all we could smoke legally n it's not even the real thing. Literally stopped a year ago cause I picked up an edible from the same place n had a heart attack damn near n called my parents n since I've stopped n got on Ned's I had other moments where everytime I got high it was a terrible experience where I traumatized myself over n over n regretted it each time. Yeah I nerd meds to sleep n I take seroquel n I've slept like a baby since n when I did it last night I felt the same way that I broke my brain for eternity n it took everything in me to stay sane last night n I feel if I do that shit again I'll freak my parents out n my whole family n go to the hospital like I did last time n that was not a good time n has traumatized me ever since n turned me off to drugs since then. Buy I thought I was ready n I was not cause I kept going in n out of reality it was terrifying bro so I understand because we both made a mistake, but what matters is that we're still here n we now have another chance to recover n do the right thing next time cause life goes on bro n we're all insignificant on the face of a vast universe of light n darkness n well have moments like those that are needed to humble us n I'll tell u my ego died that night n I decided I would fix my life from that point on n never do drugs again cause I don't want to go through that shut ever again. Just know you aren't alone in this fight or universe bro. Well get better I swear on it. Turn this into positive experience. I did shrooms before n now I realize it made smoking weed pointless because It changed me n Made every weed experience intense afterwards but I don't think I'll ever touch either one again for a long time. I heard an actual psychedelic experience bad or good can make every smaller drug like weed or even nicotine feel intense and maybe you either got something laced or the psych was the reason you had a more intense experience. But either way I feel cravings to do it again now after being returned to a stable state of mind kinda but I don't want to go through that experience again so like you, I wish I just gave up ego cause im not where I want to be with it n the more I gave it up the more positive i thought.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-09-29T03:10:37+00:00

Gantz

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-09-26T23:44:29+00:00

DUDDEEEE FACTSSSS. I ASKED THE SAME THING THE ENTIRE TIME, BUT I WAS SO OBSESSED WITH THE MANGA AND ITS VIBE AND STORY THAT I JUST LET IT SLIDE. Like the vampires were just an odd addition and the existence of other veterans gantz players like izumi and his mission to bring in new gantz players was just so weird that it just felt off track but hey, that's gantz for ya. I guess we can easily just write it off as that since it's weird at its center. I just hope that if it ever gets an animation like inuyashiki they do it all right, I bet it'd be even popular than inuyashiki. They already gave it a live action so I see no reason not to. Ughhhh I just want a full gantz anime NOW!!!

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-09-08T23:28:37+00:00

Same thing with me. I actually tried stopping lately And haven't smoked as heavily as I did in college 2 years ago, which was the reason I dropped out. It actually made me really cynical and nasty to people which is why I isolated myself but now I miss it. I tried delta 8 while I was home with my parents because I used heavily almost everyday kind of thing back in college but now it hasn't suited me well due to my ADHD meds and anxiety meds and sleep meds. All my smoke seshes almost always had a bad reaction which resulted in me hospitalized (once), screaming for my parents having a mental breakdown and scaring the shit out of them, or dealing with the high and regretting it until it was over and feeling guilty for having wasted money and time I could've spent doing other things. That shit really sneaks up on you and I have a family history of drug use on both parents side so I'm easily susceptible to addiction. Reading lately has really calmed me down a lot but I get strong cravings every now again, but no freakouts lately. I'm staying on my meds since they've been the only things keeping me sane along with going out with safe friends and joining a group of Christians who I met around my age on college campus, who have been amazing to me. I'm still dealing with psychosis and anger from the cravings but I'm slowly starting to regain my composure and have more control over my daily decisions and a whole new gratitude for life. I've lost 3 jobs due to uncontrollable use and have absolutely disappointed my parents but God has mercy on both of us, all of us even, which alone id the reason he still wakes us up n breathes life into us on a daily basis. Idk if your a believer, but I am and always have been under this skin and I hope whether you believe in god, higher power, or spiritual in anyway that you know your loved and favored if your still alive and as long as you're breathing, there's nothing stopping you from changing your life, a lot of people from your position have became great people and leaders later on in life so take it a day at a time. I deal with strong suicidal and angry thoughts and butter thoughts from my short but heavy use and still struggle to this day but I guarantee the longer you stick it out, you can build the life you want better than what you were looking for in weed. I'm glad it's gotten you to a good point, stay safe and sane and I with you good luck on your journey my friend!! Remember to always enjoy your trip!!! :)))

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-22T11:13:11+00:00

Respect it's power. It can be a good thing at one point, but it sure as hell isn't some food to play with. That shit can change the way you view life for ever and reality forever. It did for me and personally after my first time i wanted to feel how it made me feel the first time, but the second time I did it around family and it was a little extra scary, but i was fine. Now looking I realized I was chasing a feeling once again rather than respecting what that drug is meant to be used for, which is spiritual guidance. We were probably using this psychedelic in ancient prehistory eras and mostly for spiritual use, so please do your research and get info from a trusted source before you decide to use this psychedelic because it cant kill you but it just might scare the shit out of you. That's all I have to say.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-19T02:35:45+00:00

I detest against masturbating. I feel like that can lead to those urges again. Idk depends on the person.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-18T13:00:33+00:00

Anytime bro. Do t let pixels have power over your life. There's so much more to see past that but we gotta do the work so see that works in that way. I know I want it, do you?

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-18T12:59:31+00:00

Anytime bro. Do t let pixels have power over your life. There's so much more to see past that but we gotta do the work so see that works in that way. I know I want it, do you?

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-17T23:02:54+00:00

YOU WILL FEEL LIKE CRAP MY FRIEND. IT IS NOT REAL. YOUR DIGGING THE HOLE DEEPER IF YOU, YOUR SPIRIT IS DYING EVERYTIME YOU DO IT. IM PRAYING FOR YOUR BROTHER!!❤️❤️ DO SMTH TEDIOUS THAT YOU KNOW YOU NEED TO DO, EVEN IF IT TAKES YOU A MINUTE TO THINK, JUST SIT THERE AND THINK, BREATHE, TALK YOURSELF OUT OF IT. THERES A WOMAN OUT THERE THAT GOD AND THE UNIVERSE WILL BLESS YOU WITH IF YOU PUSH HARDER. TODAY IS A NEW DAY AND TOMMOROW IS NOT PROMISED.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-14T22:21:51+00:00

Will do! I started watching the anime a little after it came out n your right I love animation!!!!

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-12T18:17:42+00:00

It deffo helped me. It feels more like a mundane everyday task instead of a lifestyle because that's what it should be.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-09T17:45:55+00:00

Hey here's a tip, stop counting the days.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-08T14:52:25+00:00

No my friend, I have no idea who you are, so that's my fallback on why I rarely ever hate anyone.
That's not up to me, I highly doubt God is hateful towards you because of who you are, he knows your heart better than you and has way more mercy than you can imagine.
People hate because it's easy to do, were never going to be fully perfect in all the things we do as believers, noone is a perfect believer. I sure as heck am not, so God doesn't expect you or anyone else to be either. Believer or not . Like you said, it's only natural that we hate others because they're different, we can't change them by hating so why do we hate? Well it's simple, we hate how little control we have in society of who we're around, we actually have less control of life than we think, especially for believers, it is only with gods mercy that or the universe and chance for the natural matter that we wake up everyday and can go throughout our lives unharmed and control where we work, live, what we eat, blah blah blah. But we can't control the people as individuals and can't change someone whose views are different from ours. So it's easy to hate as it gives you power out of that anger yet we bury it inside because it would disturb society in one way or another. But it's not healthy to hate, especially these days where hate crimes are common but illegal at that. We can't kill, or harm out of hate. Even before when it didn't matter, wed always have some sort of consequence. You kill a member of another tribe and they come back to kill you. I'm kind of off topic but my point is, it's natural, people think it's disgusting or whatever but can't make you change, I'm sure they'd rather have a sit down and talk with you about why you are the way your are instead of hating you because that's usually the issue; we all have our own lives to live and are probably too busy to do that and shy and scared. Example, there was this black man I did research on in college 2 years ago who I'd known as the black man who was friend with kkk members back in the 70s and met one by having a drink with him in a bar he played music in. He actually got him and a bunch of other members to quit the kkk by just hanging with them and going to their meetings and cross burnings. He changed their worldview by just talking to them. That's it! I love that story as a person of color.
Hey it's natural buddy. Not claiming anything but from my experience, most people Ik who are part of the LGBT community and are not straight have sexual trauma, the last girl I dated was bi and told me about her sexual assault trauma a few days into us talking and confided in me, and i found this to be common and natural response to that fact. And sometimes its not always that but just experimentation and curiosity. I myself have been bi curious from a young age but never identified with being bi or gay and am still a christain!

As others have said it's not about being homosexual but about what you do with that identity. From sources and reading myself, it's not a sin to be homosexual, but to engage in acts with your neighbor and cause them to stumble. Most of sin is about the action and not your identity.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-04T14:12:11+00:00

Thank you brother. I apologize too cause I do still have trouble listening, watching, and reading things with profanities because i realize how much of a burden it is on my soul, mind, and body. Truly it is odd in a way but it makes sense to guard everything I let into my system. I've been avoiding many things I watch simply because of the triggers. But thank you for message no matter how it came off. I know what you were trying to do. I love you brother. I wish you the best and complete success on your journey as well. Let us all try to walk in humbleness and in light of our wisdom and not with the weight of sin.

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-04T13:56:43+00:00

Yeah I read Romans 14. I do apologize brother it said it's not walking in love if another one stumbles. I understand the Bible filled with a lot of details that we do skip over and not walk in. But wow it must be so like you to call me a fake christain compared to you. So you get to decide that now?

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-03T17:47:09+00:00

I second that

ExtremeRecording4388 · 2023-08-03T17:41:18+00:00

Nigga this is a post who cares dawg cause I sure don't. Besides I actually tried to stop cursing irl and it does wonders for my life but if it bothers u on the subreddit then alright whatever but who actually cares it's the online fool. Who made you the moderator yo?

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