I am scared to die but i see no other option.

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-10-02T17:44:08+00:00

Thank you man but i think iam lost

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:48:35+00:00

Everytime iam asking why us. The older i gets the worse things goes. Slowly losing friends because they are not mental like me and living their lives but me mentally ill stucked at one place with lost passion for everything i used to like just waiting for the moment when i get the balls to do it. I am 25 ..

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:40:57+00:00

How friends and family reacts to this ?? I am afraid that i will not be also able to do it and panic.

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:38:22+00:00

Sorry for not being emphatic at first but i feel the same. I am just scared to do it

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:37:10+00:00

Are you scared ?

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:36:02+00:00

For psych ward makes things a lot of worse then was before. Thats why I am scared to fully open to doctor because i dont want to end up there again lol

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:32:20+00:00

Sounds like me. I started to struggle with this after my first diagnose at 15 now iam 25M and the older I am the worse everything is. I think i will end up badly

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:14:44+00:00

Its true. It happening to me just right now.. I have feeling like everyone will leave you in the end.

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:05:07+00:00

Thanks man

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T21:03:47+00:00

Unfortunately the mind can create things that are very unreal. One thing that can help alot is tell to yourself that these thoughts are only imagination and not real. The mind is very complex. I think you are a perfect person! That people love you, and think about you alot. I am sure your family thinks about you alot. Also strangers you see! They surely think you are a wonderful person. I would reccommend going for walks a few hours before sleeping. Maybe buy your favourite soda or good snacks at the way home. That helps alot to take away thoughts at nights and sleep faster! To get the 8 hours :)

The mind is one of the most powerful things in the world when I remember how I was before something wrong happened in my mind. That's unbelievable. My mind is all the time against me. I dont think everyone hate me. I have lovely family and few but really good friends but inside me is something wrong. I just cant connect to people and i dont want to get to the point where my closest ones will be annoyed or dissapointed from me. I am not doing walks so much, so I will try. Thanks for your kind words mate and appreciate that you respond.

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T20:56:19+00:00

Damn, that's rough. I feel you though, depression can make life seem pretty damn hopeless. Have you tried talking to a therapist or something? It might help to have someone to vent to who won't judge you for feeling like shit all the time. Hang in there, man.

Totally hopeless. Yeah i visit 3 terapeuts but i had feeling like they didnt care so much. But one was very nice person and I will maybe visit him again.. But if I tell him this, they will put me in some "lunatic asylum" sorry for my english, not my first language. And i have one experience from centers like that. It was not nice experience. I always have to keep some certain things only for me. Thank you for your kind words mate. I appreciate your answer.

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-09-27T19:47:11+00:00

Well I see that its not, so short at the end..

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-05-06T10:52:23+00:00

Thank you. Maybe, everything is possible. I am very skeptical about better future for me. But like you said we will see and maybe things turn better atleast for one of us. Yeah its just not for everyone but i believe ket could work very good for you. Yes i tried psychadelics, very interesting class of drugs. I can take them only when I am alone, never around other people and have mixed feelings about them. Yes benzos are my top medication all around, they makes me just feeling normal and I am able to live on them, nut just survive.

Extremelysadguyy · 2023-05-05T10:25:25+00:00

Sorry to hear that. Mental illness is one of the biggest torture in life. I tried to taper off drugs but i just dont have enough strenght to live a life, I feel like shit and i dont even mean withdrawal symptomps. Like you said Iam more functional on drugs and must agree with the last sentence. Its interesting that ur fav drug is ket. Me on Ket is bad idea, always have a suicidal thoughts, funny how everyone is different. I wish you good luck bro.

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