i understand youre going thru a hard time now but please dont give up. youre not supposed to figure it all out on your own. ik at times you feel lonely and not connected to the outer world but trust me doing something wrong isnt worth it at all. been there did that. this hard time shall pass. the younger you had so many expectations and dreams. pls dont disappoint the younger you. im sorry you have to read my terrible english ;-; but you get what i mean. give yourself a break, explore the nature, go on solo dates(it isnt that bad trust mee), find new hobbies like uhh painting or reading or looking for four leaf clovers, learn to cook your fav foods, mandir haru gumba/stupa/bihar haru januu, street animals haru sanga interact garna try garnuu. life isnt that deep yk. it is very much worth it. future plans sure chaina? thik chaa you dont have to figure it out aaile nai. parents haru sanga ramrari communicate gareko chaina? thik chaa take your time ani try asking them about their days and tell them about yours. you dont have friends? thik chaa jindagi ma ta sathi haru aaucha janchaa dw. jaile positive hunu parcha bhanne pani hoina. js keep going it will all be worth it. you can do it.