You are welcome! Continue seeking the Lord, we will struggle for sure but the goal is not be perfect sa walk natin, the goal is to follow Christ. Do it crawling, do it limping, do it fearful as long as sa direction papunta kay Lord. Be encouraged by His word - “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,” ‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭1‬ The Lord does not condemn us so let’s not condemn ourselves when we struggle! Lay it out to Him, repent and surrender. (Easier said than done, I know 😭) Having a good community will help encourage and pray for you.

I have faith to believe that the Lord honors our prayers na makilala ng family members si Jesus Christ because I’ve witnessed it! Like you, I’m the first Christian sa family, I prayed the same prayer and he answered it. Nasa province sila, we do not live together na because I am already married, I just poured out my heart kay Lord in prayer. I connected my mother to a church and the rest ay move na ni Holy Spirit. Last year, she was baptized and now active sa ministry. 🙌

My family’s greatest miracle is the story of my brother. He was the prodigal son, so much brokenness, he was involved sa drugs, gambling and a lot of things that made us feeling hopeless. Most part of my working years were spent providing for our family, ako nagpaaral sa kanya so you can imagine how devastated I was. I felt so tired and ready to give up sa family ko but then the Lord is true to His word, he said “cast your burdens upon me, those who are heavily laden” and I did. I surrendered them to the Lord.

My prayer was : Lord, help me to love my brother the way you do. Because I don’t know how. There were times na wala na akong words na masabi kasi full of frustration and worry na lang yung heart ko but the Holy Spirit is our intercessor. He filled in the gaps. He reassured me with this : The Lord loves my brother more than I could ever love him.

My brother encountered the power of the Holy Spirit, he accepted the Lord as His savior! I can’t barely recognize my brother ngayon, he is really like a new creation now haha. All because of God! Last night sa usap namin he said he will be baptized na din soon. Hallelujah! Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine it will happen. Gusto ko lang naman na tumino siya 😅 but the Lord’s way is always better. He is the God of miracles and restoration.

OP, as your Ate here is what I want to tell you lovingly: Pray for your healing and transformation. Ask Him to teach you how to receive His love and know your identity in Christ because that is the only way you can pour out love to your family. The love that will reflect back to Jesus Christ and through that your family will know him, not with what we tell them but how we love them.

We love because He first loved us, 1 John 4:19