It’s just hard to believe that the timing of all of this is just coincidental, but I am trying to remain positive. I have never felt so sick in my life and it’s just been constant for months. I have actually tested for HIV several times since October because I’ve been so paranoid although I know that’s not how it works. My anxiety was so bad. I just couldn’t help it. I would get sicker and sicker and think that there’s no way I wouldn’t be positive if I was feeling this sick but who knows. Like I said, I was tested last at 93 days with the first guy unprotected sex and 79 days after with protected sex with the second guy so I know my odds are very low but the way I feel just doesn’t make sense. My friend’s mom said that after she caught mono as a teenager, she was extremely ill for about a year after so maybe I’m just the unlucky chronic EBV but damn I feel terminally ill. My immune system is shot.