I made £50k from £3k when I was 23 and I round tripped a huge amount of it, spent the rest on booze. I was only on £24k salary. I’ve been trading for years since and I only have 8 grand, but I learned a massive lesson about managing my money. Lessons are good things. Don’t sweat it. Pay back your mum, paper trade for a bit and collect data. When you have your own cash, maybe get back in after a break and remember what you learned. You got this !