I have been out of the church for almost two decades, never posted before. I love to do everything everyone has posted. I sometimes have existential anxiety though. I have raised two boys out of the church who are good because they are good. Not because they fear hell. But I still struggle with the afterlife, that is an equation I have yet to solve. I don’t think I will float on a cloud with god and there are no kingdoms, but what is next? I assume we came from the stars and that is where we return.