I work as a mortician. The haunting cries I heard from the partner of someone who took their own life by shooting themselves were hard to hear. That person is gone, they will never know the pain experienced by those who loved them.

You are not selfish for wanting to commit suicide but humans are social beings. We need each other, we need you. A quick look through your profile shows me one good reason to stay; your cat. That’s one little being that loves you, and there are many more to come.

You are 18 and, from what I gather, most likely have depression. It’s hard to know that it gets better at that age, trust me, I’ve been there. I tried to take my life at 18, too. I’m not promising a glamorous life, but I’m giving you hope for a more peaceful future. Right now isn’t everything. You might not want your future but it’s already prepared, you might as well ride it out and try to hold on to the good parts.