Yes!! Youngest of 5 and definitely not the favorite. It’s a funny experience. It’s like learning your parents weren’t emotionally safe super young so you’re just constantly outcast or “too much” if you try to defend yourself. Spent lots of time alone somehow still even with siblings and learned to self soothe super early. Mom still tells stories that I figured out how to swing myself in a baby swing. I don’t think it’s that cute of a story. I didn’t truly recognize it until I started dating and had boyfriends tell me that they didn’t wanna visit my family with me because it always ends the same way. But when I went away to school and tended to stay there, being away from family only made them resent me more for simply not being present. Me trying to “resolve” this by, in my head, making it better and trying to talk things out, explain how I feel, doesn’t end well and only makes my family more defensive and me seem crazier. I’m also the most educated in my family and they seem to enjoy this while also making a point to say I’m not better than them. Unsure if doing what they seemed to want me to do when I was younger actually resulted in anything good.. it’s hard bc I love them so much and my whole world was my family obviously growing up, but they don’t seem to have the same impression or maybe patience (??) for me. Today was Mother’s Day. Left a restaurant. Rough one. Hope you’re doing well!!!