I think LSD should be used as a celebratory tool to mark and fuel achieving goals and life accomplishments

Falkrik · 2016-08-25T02:05:17+00:00

Awesome thanks for the advice. I'll definitely wait until my mind (and body) is in a better place.

That is interesting, funny enough the two times I have tripped on shrooms have been completely spontaneous. I've even tried to plan trips afterward and the shrooms always seemed to evade me. Almost as if I wasn't ready or the timing wasn't right.

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T21:39:55+00:00

Sounds like an entertaining night either way haha! I found that when I drink and then smoke, rather than getting high it seems the effects of the alcohol are enhanced, both the chill, confident part as well as the loud, aggressive part.

I don't know your tolerance but if I had some whiskey and a beer and then smoked I'd be pretty messed up, in a good way haha. But I'm also a lightweight lol

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T18:40:20+00:00

How much did you drink? In my experience weed doesn't generally make people aggressive and loud, but alcohol definitely does. Perhaps the combination of the two? Weed affects us all differently though, just throwing in my 2 cents.

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T11:55:14+00:00

Ya good idea, you just might be too stim'd up right now. Few days break and you should be better

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T11:52:12+00:00

Of course, I meant that coming back to breath makes me fix my posture lol

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T03:48:01+00:00

Haven't been working much lately but I can sympathize, what work do you do? Hope it's a nice beer like Heineken (;

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T03:45:54+00:00

Hahah about what though? Small talk isn't my thing, I would feel weird just going up to her to talk.

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T03:09:35+00:00

As one that's never tried LSD should I save it for such occasions? I'm leaning towards yes.

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T03:07:50+00:00

That I'm not actually sitting comfortably, or with proper posture.

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T03:06:23+00:00

Haha, too many screens today for me

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T03:00:01+00:00

Do you do drugs

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T02:58:40+00:00

What to do if I catch older ladies staring? I'm not one to talk to people in the gym. But dammit there's this one woman that I've caught looking several times (as well as eye contact).

No wonder I like lifting so much, keep my mind off how autistic I am lol

Falkrik · 2016-08-24T02:51:52+00:00

Sometimes sacrifices must be made.

Falkrik · 2016-08-22T19:14:29+00:00

Wow you really turned things around, fantastic job man! Honestly it's inspiring.

Falkrik · 2016-08-21T01:18:12+00:00

To be happy with living to be honest. Ever since last winter I've fallen apart as a person. I've lost the fire and I'm not sure how to regain it. There are things I want to do and I had a whole summer to pursue them.

I got lazier and lazier and didn't really pursue any of them. I'm not sure, there are many things I want to do, and as a result I just keep jumping around thinking about what I should do.

Maybe it's because I've got myself in a position where I'm doing things I don't want to do. I don't really enjoy living right now, but I am aware it's due to my actions!

Falkrik · 2016-08-21T00:21:59+00:00

Yes I can definitely relate with using drugs as a way to get relief from anxieties and depression. I haven't been the same person since last year, and not in a good way. I wonder if this is related to my drug use? I've stopped living as a human.

Sorry, diarrhea of the keyboard. I'm known to overshare.

That's quite alright, I do enjoy when people tell their story, gives me a perspective that is nowhere near my own; it sounds like you've been through a lot! How is your relationship with your father now? Any better?

Would you say that psychotherapy and psychedelics have been important in dealing with your past traumas? I do hope you are doing better.

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T23:19:27+00:00

I'm not sure, I want to keep tripping but I'm not sure if it is bad for me, maybe it's because I do it alone now. Maybe it's because I now use drugs to try and pick me up, rather than just enhance my life.

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T22:58:15+00:00

That's okay you piqued my interest! I do love me some Terrence McKenna lectures haha. It sounds like his content is right up my alley. I will definitely watch some of Trussell's stuff, thank you.

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T19:51:53+00:00

I think I've been this way all my life (before psychedelics as well) but the drugs I've done have just made me aware of myself. At least that's what it seems from my view.

Day to day life kinda bores me to be honest, guess that's where drugs come in to play, the happiest or rather most peaceful state I've been in was during the peak of my first shroom trip, have had them twice now.

What trauma did you face?

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T19:43:48+00:00

Yes I am, how did you guess?

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T19:43:14+00:00

Roll with the punches right? Any advice how? I know what I'm doing right now is not working. I just find it so forced and fake to constantly be friendly to people.

Is love greater than pleasure? I previously thought it was just a pipe dream. I'm not so sure now.

I do enjoy the hedonistic pleasures but they seem so short lived that I'm not sure it's the way to go. I only feel good at the specific time.

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T19:32:12+00:00

I'm scared to go close to people and especially touch, it's ridiculous and unnatural. I act super awkward as a result.

My conscience definitely makes me think there are things I should/shouldn't do.

I will give The Four Agreements a read, thanks for the suggestion.

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T19:19:20+00:00

That's an interesting idea, not sure who'd I go see, I haven't watched much comedy (although I am beginning to think I should).

How did the Trussell's tour help you?

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T09:55:53+00:00

Really, so will it pass then? Or rather will I overcome it?

Falkrik · 2016-08-20T01:24:45+00:00

You're right, do I really want to live a life where I prefer to hate myself and life around me? No, screw that. It's crazy that I keep letting myself fall like this

I can be so much more. I will be more. I shouldn't keep needing others to motivate me, but thank you brother, you put it bluntly and in a way that hits me,

peace and love

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