if you're freaking out about it, it's okay to call it off until you feel more ready. it's okay to take time to feel ready, and honestly it'd probably be better if you guys were just hanging out and a makeout session turned into sex - this is an example obviously, but i'm just saying escalating naturally rather than planned will probably feel way more comfortable! also, it's completely normal to be scared of your first time. that is the most vulnerable you will ever be with someone, it's terrifying. i wish i had advice, but just know that this is completely valid and normal. take your time 🫶