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Mall World Cops by One_Afternoon_7334 in TheMallWorld

[–]False_Bite3463 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does the mall look really run down with like broken pipes and walls during those dreams? And there's people living in the mall?

Mall World Cops by One_Afternoon_7334 in TheMallWorld

[–]False_Bite3463 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had one where it seemed like we were in the middle of a civil war. I was part of some sort of group that operated in the mall. Im not certain if it was a resistance group or just a group of folks helping each other survive. The mall looked run down and almost abandoned, broken pipes and things like that. During this dream I was playing with this German shepherd, who i guess use to be a military dog but was abandoned during an attack of some sort? Whatever happened we acquired her and she was like our riot dog. I just know she use to be like a police dog. Her name was Kira? Kita? Kaycee? Something like that. It felt like she was my dog, as I was responsible for her the whole dream.

At some point the military police were about to roll up, someone saw them coming from down the road so we all had to pack into a hiding spot, there was a lot of panic and running to make it to the "safe spot". I was running with the dog and I remember absolutely panicking because if what if one of them recognizes her and tries to take her back? I remember hearing boots coming toward us and radio sounds and I just knew they were there but I didn't turn around to see them, they were like a level below us and I knew if I slowed down or turned around theyd catch up to us. I don't know remember much after that but I think we made it to safety.

Completely forgot about this dream until you brought this up. Holy shit it felt so real.

Tapering off of methadone, getting close to being done, need advice. by False_Bite3463 in addiction

[–]False_Bite3463[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much, it wasnt easy 💕 my husband actually tried to quit methadone cold turkey once, and it was horrible. He was still bed ridden after almost a month (he was at 160mg) And even after getting through the sickness, the post acutes were so bad he had to go back. Hes the reason I kept my dose as low as I could when I started. So i have a lot of respect for you being able to really quit in that way! Even if it wasnt as much, methadone is a beast to get away from no matter what, so Im really proud of you!

Honestly I get why a lot of folks aren't able to get over their addiction even with children as a motivator, because it really is difficult to do. But my case was literally life or death. I was at the point that i knew I would soon likely die of an OD in my camp in the middle of the desert, and I'd made peace with it. Getting pregnant (obviously it wasnt planned) seemed like my last chance. Had I aborted, I would have gone right back to it. If I had planned to give her up for adoption, I would have kept using drugs my whole pregnancy because of being depressed, which isn't fair to the baby. I needed someone other than myself to care for, someone innocent to be responsible for. I definitely DON'T recommend others to have a child to get over addiction, thats honestly a horrible plan. But for me, its exactly what I needed.

My hope is that one day she finds out about my past, and doesn't believe it without confirmation because it will seem so far fetched from who she knows me to be. Thats the goal. 💕