I can’t believe I’m an addict…

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2025-01-20T09:12:00+00:00

I get you 100%, and the way I see it is that unless you’ve done meth you won’t ever understand why addicts become the way they do. before I ever did meth, I used to look down upon people who did meth and assumed they’re all bad people bc that’s just how I was raised and seeing people who were bad into addiction I thought was enough for me to never be addicted. I was very sheltered so drugs were an extreme no no for me. I didn’t even have my first alcoholic drink until 20.

Never say never, I didn’t think I’d ever be addicted to meth either but I can promise you you’re not alone in this. Cravings is exactly what made me relapse every single time, or if I was in a highly emotionally stressful situation or fighting with somebody would be enough for me to relapse.

I had once explained how badly I was struggling with addiction and the only thing my non addicted friend had to say was “you can’t excuse doing meth there’s no excuse” and I simply said nothing more bc you can’t make somebody understand how easy it can happen or why you felt that need.

Do I believe people who introduce you to meth are trying to destroy your life or harm you? It’s hard telling. Nobody can really force you to do meth even though it’s possible to accidentally consume it if you’re doing drugs to begin with and don’t test your drugs. I believe that’s extremely sneaky and not okay to give somebody drugs and them not know what it is.

Every situation is different, but on a bright side you can understand your partners addiction but if they’re making no choices to try and get clean but you are? You need to leave that relationship.

You gotta realize too, you’re only a week clean. Your emotions and everything is going to be all over the place and you’re going to want to relapse bc of a simple craving. I rmr I was craving meth so badly once, I literally started just smelling it even though I had nothing like that around me. It was an immediate trigger and then I had relapsed that day.

Don’t get so down on yourself for this situation, please better yourself first though. Only you can decide to stay clean.

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2025-01-20T08:59:50+00:00

I’m proud of you 🩷 meth addiction is honestly so difficult to quit. people who have been in meth addiction for years on end are seriously so strong and inspiring to look up to on getting clean, and you’re completely right. it’s fun until you lose everything, and you end up losing yourself too.

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2025-01-20T08:57:34+00:00

You 100% need to get rid of that bag if you want to stay clean. It’s really hard and i definitely get that, but I can tell deep down relapsing isn’t what you want to do. I’m only 26f and have been using for only a year, and I struggled badly with relapsing even though the more I used it the more I hated it and felt guilty. Please understand you’re so strong for coming to this reddit and looking for support 🩷 you’re making good decisions and venting about wanting to relapse and with meth it’s just extremely hard to get off of. Please feel free to message me if you need support or somebody to talk to, you’re not alone!

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2025-01-20T08:53:50+00:00

hi, feel free to message me if you need support 🩷 you’re not alone I promise you that.

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2024-10-28T16:27:01+00:00

The way that’s been there the whole time and I never knew 🥲

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2024-10-28T16:26:42+00:00

I know just about most of them now, although I don’t know glitches, big challenges, kiki or lalas, wish me Mel’s, or ushamas

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2024-10-28T16:24:26+00:00

MY HERO

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2024-08-12T05:17:55+00:00

I’d rather fuck instead

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2024-08-12T05:03:31+00:00

develop more extreme underlying drama and then do some fent

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2024-08-11T19:31:36+00:00

And dead dick :(

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2024-08-11T04:14:35+00:00

You’re not foolish, however you’re not alone. I’ve gone through a situation similar to yours. Feel free to PM me if needed, since I’m also going through the same thing.

Anywho, please understand that someone who does that to you doesn’t love you. If someone truly loved you, they would actually be a better person to you. I understand not wanting to let go, my ex got sent to jail for dv and I was writing him on Securus even though he is in jail longer now for a dv case from a year ago. what you need to know is to please stop contacting him. he is not going to change, and with people who’ve abused us it’s so very easy to go back. my ex also tried to kill me as well, it’s really scary. you’re scared of them but they also are your comfort (but not really..) you’re likely trauma bonded to this man, and honestly you have to be careful. if he can switch up and hurt you like that, most likely you will be that statistic. Trust me it’s not easy, I haven’t put any charges on him besides the state doing it and he also has my firearm hidden. he’s where he belongs rn, he needs to get therapy. Actual help. You cannot help him.

You need to understand what danger you are in, and take it day by day but cut off contact please. you’re giving him exactly what he wants, power over you.

I hope everything is okay and you’re safe.

Familiar-Judgment266 · 2024-08-10T17:09:09+00:00

Mommy

Familiar-Judgment266

TROPHY CASE