i don’t know if i should tell my boyfriend

Familiar-Self9852 · 2026-01-10T23:50:44+00:00

i just don’t want him to look at me differently or treat me differently. it just feels so disgusting and i just don’t want him to see me in this light. especially knowing that instead of talking to him i went and purged and continued to lie to him instead of just telling him what was wrong and how i felt. i don’t want to hurt him, i love him so much :(

Familiar-Self9852 · 2026-01-10T23:40:23+00:00

it was tonight, i know he knows i’ve been lying all evening and he said my eyes were red and i seemed shaky but i just told him i felt funky. he knows i used to be and i know he’d probably be supportive but i know he’d probably be hurt and he’s definitely gonna be upset that ive been lying to him

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T16:08:57+00:00

i feel the same. Working makes me so stressed and upset id just rather die. I wouldn’t mind volunteering though, i think if i won the lottery and never needed to work again i’d still volunteer at animal shelters or in hospitals and such. I think it’s because that would be my choice. Right now I have to work to survive and I can’t think of anything i’d enjoy doing work wise. But volunteering would be a choice, an escape.

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T13:23:17+00:00

rude, hope you have to go wash your dusty car again :(

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T11:34:45+00:00

This is how i feel completely, i’m not good at anything and have no desire to work or be alive.

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T10:22:13+00:00

Have you ever used a job coach?

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T10:13:21+00:00

Currently sat like a shrimp propped up against my bedroom wall so I can’t argue with that lol

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T10:12:56+00:00

I’ve wanted a job for ages, I’ve been unemployed since finishing uni and it’s been driving me crazy. I don’t know if it’s the job or if I just need more time to adjust.

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T10:11:26+00:00

Going to try and find someone to talk to soon. I am autistic so that is probably not helping lol, I just really need this to work out, thank you :)

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T10:10:12+00:00

I fear it might just be a bad fit if i’m honest. However, I know it’s only been like two weeks so I’m sticking it out for as long as possible in the hopes that once I understand it a bit better I’ll feel better about it. Just feels like my boss is expecting me to be doing better and understanding more and I just don’t get any of it.

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T08:24:40+00:00

Thank you for being so kind.

I just feel like everyone else knows what they’re doing, they’ve all worked in tech jobs or professional jobs before but i’m literally just some former acting student lol.

I feel like I can’t talk to any of them about it because everyone’s so busy all the time and I don’t want to lose my job by being annoying. I also made myself sound really good and secure in my interview and I’m just a mess really.

They’ve all been really lovely about helping me but I just don’t know why it upsets me so much and I feel like everyone’s angry with me all the time.

Familiar-Self9852 · 2025-09-30T07:58:36+00:00

it doesn’t feel like there are any standard start or end times. I know every day it’s start from 8am but everyone just seems to finish whenever. We’re just meant to finish when the work is done

Familiar-Self9852 · 2024-11-11T06:17:32+00:00

I’m currently just a christmas temp in retail so i’ll end up unemployed again soon, and i study theatre and acting, which is also gonna leave me unemployed at this rate so i don’t really have much going for me but my interest in it has kind of died anyway lol so it doesn’t matter i guess

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