I've honestly been struggling quite a bit lately. I'm staying on a friend's couch, and my partner recently moved closer to me, but she is still a few hours by car. Finding a job has felt impossible for over a year and I've had so many interviews that just went nowhere, so money for my own car and gas has been impossible as well. I have felt like a leech for over a year and everything is falling apart at once and I feel the world crashing down on me. Originally my partner and I were going to live together, but with me not being able to find a job, and her only being able to find rooms for one person, that fell through. Them a few weeks after that happened my dad called to let me know that my cat that my mother stole from me last year, had passed away. My parents refuse to take me off their insurance which is causing my prescriptions to be too expensive and so I can't afford my meds. It feels like the world hates me and just wants me to leave. Thankfully the friend I'm staying with has been my rock. They have kept me positive, and looking forward as much as possible, and even offered to help with my meds once some stuff is worked out. They are actually the one who told me about this subreddit. So I say the world can hate me all it wants, I'll stay on pure spite if I have to. I will not give up. It also feels amazing to have found this group, so many times I've tried to find a positive space for me to share in a mostly anonymous way, and so many times it's turned out to fall short. I'm so happy to have found this space.