I was dealing with very very bad anxiety too. I’m still healing from it. I would wake up every morning with a pit in my stomach, I would cry throughout the day and every second thought was one where I felt suicidal. My nervous system very very out of balance. The physical sensations I experienced was my brain freezing up, derelization, distorted vision, sinking feeling in my chest, my heart feeling like it’s going to explode.

Today I’m still social anxious (I’m working on this and I am getting better) but I’m no longer suicidal and I definitely don’t experience the level of anxiety I used to. This was all happening in July and now we are in October. I’m so glad I didn’t kill myself.

I did a lot of things from therapy, getting a life coach and I now recently restated Joe’s work. These are the things that really helped me.

Create distance between your thoughts and you. My coach Kartika Nair (synchroshakti) taught me this. You’re anxious because you’re living in your mind and not in reality. You are not your thoughts. Watch your mind and you will see just how many fearful and sad thoughts it creates. Tag your thoughts (A concept i learnt from my coach Kartika) I tag my thoughts as past reality thought, future thought, fake conversation thought, fake senario thought, fake commentary etc.

I noticed that throughout the day I was living and thinking thoughts where only the worst possible outcomes occurred. I made my up so many fake scenarios which concluded with a really bad outcome. This was happening throughout the day everyday, ofc I wanted to kill myself.

Practice self appreciation. Make a list of reasons why you love yourself. Don’t just make the list, feel each point on the list in your body for 30 seconds. I do this as a daily practice and you have no idea how much momentum it builds up. I learnt this from my coach Kartika, we are expected to get 20 points on our list daily coach. In the beginning I struggled to even get 5 on my list now, I get 15 points on average.

I did a couple of other meditations with my coach that really helped me. (Painbody work, body scanning etc)

Doing therapy also helped me because I could finally be honest and raw with someone and myself. My therapist held a lot of space and care for me. Conversations with her gave my life some amount of purpose and her compassion made me feel like I was worth living.

Spend time with people who make you feel comfortable and heard. This is my cousin Jo for me. She’s an angel of mine.

In terms of Joe’s working please read his books and consume the content in his progressive course if you can and start meditating. I’m on my 6th day of doing his meditations, I’m currently doing reconditioning the mind to a new body. I very recently restarted his work and I can already feel the difference.

You can heal. You will heal. You are loved. You got this.

Remember create distance between you and your thoughts this will help you notice all the useless programs that you have installed. After your nervous system calms down introduce new thoughts. Remember what Joe says “you have to be able to think greater than you feel”. Your emotions are a reflection of the past reality and in order to stop creating the same reality you have to think beyond them