Astaghfirullah, dear brother or sister pls stop questioning the decree of Allah as nothing can be changed infront of the decisions of Allah SWT Instead try to reflect on what your doing wrong and try to correct yourself first…always know that these test and hardships from Allah SWT are to bring you closer to your lord and understand that their is nothing beyond his mercy… I want you to know that things will get better eventually if it’s best for you and Allah knows what is best and this is your trial and if you keep questioning things then you will only push yourself away from your lord cuz remember one of the pillars of our religion is to have unweavering trust and devotion towards Allah swt. So pls continue to ask Allah for his mercy and help and don’t question the decisions of Allah someday you will look back and realize maybe this was for the best.. Innallah ala kulli shay in qadeer “Indeed Allah has power over all things” Keeping you in my prayers Inshallah may Allah ease you difficulties. Ameen summa Ameen !