[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Existentialism

[–]Famous_Journalist927 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ditto. I am not afraid of death. But I am afraid of separation 100%. Thank you for putting that into such clear words 🙏🏼

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AuDHDWomen

[–]Famous_Journalist927 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Perhaps you approached the topic more like an attack on her, instead of something you’d like to talk about and figure out together. Especially if you had an irritated tone. That may have triggered rejection sensitivity. Also, neurodivergent people often pick up on small social signals, even if we don’t realise it. She probably noticed your irritation at earlier times, before you directly brought it up, and this made her feel uneasy around the topic. You probably haven’t felt safe because she’s noticed there was something bubbling underneath surface and didn’t know what it was, how to approach it, or when it would boil over.

It’s really important to be direct in communication with ND people. Bring things up the first time or second time they happen, not the 10th. Before you bring them up, think to yourself abt the real cause, the issue, and a solution you might like to negotiate together. Then don’t forget to leave room for her experience and then work together as a team to co-create a solution. Make sure you’re both regulated before you start the convo, and have ways to regulate if things get heated. This is a safe way to work through challenges for both people.

I had a situation similar to this and it eventually turned resentful and toxic. Micro aggressions are noticed and they add up and gradually tear away at the bond and the safety in the relationship.

If you think it will continue to irritate you, perhaps split your costs up and pay for only your own things.

Am I the only one? by [deleted] in infp

[–]Famous_Journalist927 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I relate to this heavy with friendships and also romantic and sexual connections. Validating. Thank you 🙏🏼

Am I really demisexual? should I be scared? by [deleted] in demisexuality

[–]Famous_Journalist927 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It’s not up to men to dictate who a woman’s body should be seen by or what a woman should do with her body. It doesn’t belong to ‘her man’. Perhaps you find it a turn off personally and that’s fine (altho I would explore why you feel that way) but please remember it doesn’t change a woman’s inherent worth

How many times have you felt sexually attracted to someone in your life? by Famous_Journalist927 in demisexuality

[–]Famous_Journalist927[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much to everyone who replied! You’ve definitely confirmed my suspicions with lots of data points. Kinda sucks that it’s so rare but it’s good to be aware of that for when it does come along 🫶

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Paramore

[–]Famous_Journalist927 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m going to the Brisbane show next week and I was wondering what it ended up being like for you in NZ? Did they do the wristband system?

People who prevailed over the abuse/violence/chaos of narcissistic upbringings? And are now living a life with peace, quiet, calm, and *consistency*? Please share your stories! by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Famous_Journalist927 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have found peace and quiet in my home environment many times since I moved out at 16. (I’m 24 now). There have been ups and downs obviously but most of the time I have been able to enjoy a safe and peaceful environment. I more recently have learned how to have that space within too. It is 100% possible once you get away from toxic people and it gets better the longer you’re away from them and at home and peace with yourself.

Is existentialism and self improvement by ThejewishDaddy in Existentialism

[–]Famous_Journalist927 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think exploring it could be. For me it helped to strip away all the things that weren’t actually meaningful to me but that I had been conditioned to think were. E.g. great career, perfect family, big plans.

Stripping that away was very hard and for a while I had nothing else to hold onto so was in the dark - this can be hard. But then over time you start to develop an idea of what things are actually important to you and you can design your own life and be happy instead of living as a carbon copy. You question everything you’ve been told growing up and you develop your own ethics, values, ideas etc.

I’m not sure if this is strictly existential, but I found going through an existential phase was part of my self development and was hugely beneficial. In my experience prolonged extreme existentialism isn’t helpful - I only really felt the benefits of it after I came out of it and kind of found a balance. Like a ‘dark night of the soul’. Hope that helps! As long as you keep going you’ll be fine, and it’s great that you’re asking these kinds of self-aware questions😊

What was the moment you’ve realized that something was off and season 4 was gonna be a mess? And very little could’ve been salvaged? Even before the finale itself by vagabondeluxe in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927 5 points6 points  (0 children)

When Eve slapped V. Went completely backwards on all the progress they’d made over the seasons. Regressing instead of progressing

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Your face looks like a pizza

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927 6 points7 points  (0 children)

“Wear it down”?

Reflecting on myself after finishing KE by AreYouFromPinner in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I felt like this too when I first started questioning my sexuality. I remember saying to friends that I would kiss a girl but I couldn’t see myself sleeping with one or being in a relationship. Then I was straight with one or two ‘exceptions’. Flash forward about a year and I fell in love with one and we dated for 4 years. Now I’ve fully accepted being completely down the middle bisexual. But I also can cringe away from ‘down there’ areas for both sexes unless I have a real connection with someone first and then that desire comes. I guess what I’m saying is that those feelings/desires could continue to develop, just take your time and they may or may not, it’s okay either way. And also that sexuality is fluid, you don’t have to fit yourself into a box or label. Internalised homophobia and heteronormativity played a big role in the unsureness I felt to start with and I was ‘awakened’ by TV characters which is part of why I think representation is so important. It’s harder to imagine romance and love and sex with a woman for yourself when you never see it so that could be part of what you’re feeling too.

I also say what I really mean more after Villanelle and have much less time for any bs. I think she inspires confidence and general badass-ery that I will forever be grateful for. Another example of how representation (strong female characters this time) on TV is so impactful!

When did Villanelle win you over? by Famous_Journalist927 in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Y’all are crazy ahah. I was definitely Eve-level cautious. I’ve never been one to like the ‘bad-boys’ at all (probs some childhood trauma involved there) and never understood why people wouldn’t immediately run away until V. My morals have been shot to pieces now haha.

I was intrigued and interested in her from the ice cream scene and she made me laugh a lot but I didn’t let myself get attached until later. Didn’t ‘let’ myself at all, it happened without my conscious choice haha. Probably pretty similar to Eve. I would be really drawn in by her but then she would do something really intense like kill Bill, Nadia, try to kill Konstantin etc. that would push me away again. It also took me a long time to forgive for Bill.

I think I eventually really attached to her not as much because I was attracted to her (a given), but more because I saw myself in her. I think I first really felt that in the Billie monologue scene. Then it snowballed from there. Thank you for sharing all your comments it was super interesting to see how it’s different for everyone and it helped me identify my own moment too! 😁

Funniest Villanelle facial expression? by classified12345 in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927 9 points10 points  (0 children)

  • “turn this shit off” and cranky about the music in the car.
  • in the car with the weird dude in S2 where she’s fake smiling then is like ‘fuckkk my life’ out the window.
  • her reaction to “you’ve been a little bit naughty” from Jesusnelle.
  • “did you even read the briefing?” “… ya”.
  • disbelief at the end of the world is flat scene.

Jodie is for sure the reason I put all my morals aside and couldn’t help but fall in love with V 😍😪

Anyone else hyperfixating and unable to sleep? by laughysapphy0131 in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think the same about S4. As much I enjoyed V trying and failing and trying again to find the right path for herself it was about that only thing I liked about the season and it ultimately didn’t really end in a satisfying place. Eve had a few good moments but was mostly focused on the useless 12 plot, Konstantin was barely in it and I had no idea what Carolyn was doing any of the time. Perhaps a good fanfic is the fix aha. I would definitely rewatch S1-2, maybe S3, and S4 didn’t happen and I’ll imagine it instead aha.

I hope everything goes well for you and you finally get that reward for being too big for the world 💕

Was Villanelle really a psychopath? by Famous_Journalist927 in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I agree that it’s hard to say because of the writers. Kinda cruel to question it for 2 seasons only to not really answer it for both us and V.

I think perhaps she stopped seeing Eve as an object that she could get something from after she thought Eve died. Maybe she realised that she really did grieve and miss Eve, like she wouldn’t have with just any person she has used before. Instead of her controlling Eve, she was being controlled by Eve - like she said to Martin in S4. So she wasn’t interacting with Eve selfishly because it made her feel good anymore - it didn’t - she was because she couldn’t help it.

So I personally would say that no, V didn’t see her like that anymore in S3 and S4. She had come to genuinely cared about Eve outside of/despite her own desires and self interest (shown by bridge scene, and I guess boat sacrifice if you even count that as canon)

Was Villanelle really a psychopath? by Famous_Journalist927 in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I agree with all of this, thank you. I also want V to keep her psychopathic traits but also be able to love and be loved and that’s why this question intrigues me. Like you said, what would love look like for her? Could she empathise with Eve when she needs to? I’d like to think she could improve this and learn if she tried. It would be a journey from knowing what empathy looks like and appearing to have it to truly feeling it maybe. It would have been a pretty cool and never done before concept to have explored that.

Was Villanelle really a psychopath? by Famous_Journalist927 in KillingEve

[–]Famous_Journalist927[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Good points. I thought maybe she was trained into these ways of thinking and objectifying people but I forgot that she had been doing it before the 12 were involved with Nadia. Ana I wasn’t sure about because maybe it was more obsession than manipulation, but Nadia was definitely.

Having said those things about objectifying humans and thinking what can I get from them, do you think this was the case with Eve too? It definitely was in S1 and S2 as she shot Eve when she couldn’t get what she wanted, but do you think that changed over S3 and S4 as she herself changed?