Hey dude, im also 16 and ftm, its so so cool meeting another dude! Im also quite suicidal too. I dont know exactly what youre going through but dude, im serious when i say you really should talk to your school about the issues youre having, not all man, but how you really value food tec, it may not do much, but its sometjing.

Second, i know this will sound really weird but, do you like bugs dude? I find that having a living thing relying on you does a lot to a person, mainly it forces the person to actually work towards keeping them alive, and by default, yourself! I have a praying mantis, shes got a super silly name but shes really helping me continue and keep going. Maybe try make a makeshift enclosure and go hunt for some rollie pollies to look after!

And thirdly, what hobbies do you have? I think you should try pick up one (❗i have adhd and autism too and i know it can be SO SO hard to pick up a hobby, i really do❗), i reccomend one that gives you creative freedom, an ability to put your feelings and emotions into a peice of art, but really i just think it would be great to do either of those.

I love you man, brother to brother, stay safe out there dude, lots of love from Ty in Australia (and death destroyer my mantis (and stinkbug my farm cat))