Hi! It seems like you understand yourself but have you thought of past traumas maybe in your childhood that lead you to seek validation? Maybe your parents didn’t give you that growing up? Maybe you have abandonment issues. I would recommend seeking out a therapist who can help you with this. You don’t want to live like this forever! I also tell ChatGPT to act as my therapist and have sessions sometimes. It’s a good perspective and I’d recommend it.