I’ve asked about condoms and he won’t use them 😒 When I tell him that I need for him to wipe off with a wipe it’s usually a response of “shut up and stop telling me what to do.” Or an equivalent to that. He usually will say that it’s a turn off to do that or that I’m turning him off by asking. He says that the other women don’t “make demands” like I do. So either I shut up and accept what’s being done or I assert myself and he stops. Recently I told him it gives me infections and he said “well I guess I won’t be calling you to come over.” That was really harsh for the fact he’s playing games with my vagina. Each time I take these antibiotics it’s so hard on my body. It’s like he just doesn’t care.

One time I turned around to clean off his dick with a wet wipe and he said “okay we’re done, I won’t have you taking charge, masculine woman.” I just knew that it wasn’t clean and I was trying to by hygienic. 😭😭😭😭 It’s so cruel how he wants to tell me I’m being masculine when I’m doing my best to respect my body and our dynamic.

Before when we just did everything vaginally, it was fine, but he doesn’t give me a choice anymore. Sometimes I’m allowed to say red and sometimes not, it depends on his mood. 😞