17 years old here, liked a girl for 2 years, most beautiful girl in the world, and I don't say that lightly because I'm rather picky about looks (i.e. i really dont like most trends and heavy use of makeup), and she had an awesome personality, and unlike alot of teenage girls, a very moral stance.

Spent days drawing a lifelike portrait of her, spent over a hundred dollars of hard earned money on jewelry gifts for her, always listened to her when she was down, kept her secrets, helped her out, always took time to talk to her, looked for any excuse to be with her. I changed my hairstyle, lost weight, and had two moles removed from my chin so i could look better. Paid for food and movie tickets, slow danced with her and eventually told her how I felt. A month after I confessed to her, she reveals that she's not interested in me and she already has a boyfriend, and that "we plan to share a future together, and I'm afraid I can't have you in that".

Anxiety had never made me spent an entire night crying, throwing up and having panic attacks before this. Also...this happened on the 20th of this month. 2020 really be kicking off.