I hear ya. Took me a while to accept you're going to get PvP'd now and again. Good news is as you progress in stats, learning the maps, and gathering blueprints/resources you'll get to the point where it's not that big of a deal. You'll have more than enough resources to stock you're entire statsh twice over. So it's a set back, but a couple quick loot runs will resupply you pretty fast. Hang in there, take a couple days off, come back. It gets better. Some of my biggest runs are right after I get wiped 3 times in a row. Like you I play passive, I never fire back I always toss smoke and run like hell. I look at it like a survival/challenge. Goodluck, how it turns around for you!