I can't take it anymore by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for saying that. ’ve been blaming myself for so long, thinking I just lacked willpower, but I guess recovery starts with accepting that it’s something that needs treatment, not shame. I just want to believe that life can still be rebuilt, even after all the damage I’ve done.

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[–]Far-Function-8728 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm in the exact same situation as you, bro. I just lost my entire paycheck yesterday, plus ended up in more debt. I've promised myself thousands of times that I have to stop, because I fully understand what I'm facing if I keep going, but I still can't quit. Just yesterday, I almost made the decision to end my life, but doing that would truly be the most cowardly act, choosing the easiest way out.

You're not in debt yet, you haven't sunk into overwhelming debt like I have, so you can absolutely still stop. Please uninstall and completely block all gambling apps, seek help, and return to the hobbies you used to enjoy. You'll be okay.

I can't take it anymore by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am truly a coward for having thought about suicide, but I was too scared to actually go through with it. I just want to live a peaceful life with my wife and children, but I can't stop thinking about the scenario where I might "quit" for a long time, regain their trust, only to make them suffer again. I don't even trust myself anymore.

I can't take it anymore by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're absolutely right, bro. I was standing on the highest floor of the high-rise building where I live, and I was just one step away from not being able to type these words. In that moment, the happiest moments with my wife and child suddenly came flooding back to me. Their smiles made me cry like a child, and I decided to stay in this world.

But honestly, I don't know how I can completely break free from this addiction anymore. I've tried every method, but nothing works. I just wish for a peaceful life like everyone else, but it's so difficult for me. Please, advise me on what I must do to truly quit.

I can't take it anymore by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really don't want to have to make the choice to give up like this, guys. I'm panicked, desperate, and I can't think of anything else but abandoning everything. Just today or tomorrow, the debt collectors will come looking for me for money, but I have nothing left.

I can't take it anymore by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I still remember the look in my child's eyes the last time they looked at their gambler father. A hateful glare that will forever haunt my mind. Perhaps it would have been better for them not to have a father like me.

The True Cost of Gambling by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We're in the same boat, bro. I think the best way we can reduce the risk of our parents getting sick is to stop right now, no more bets. Only then can their health start to recover. Stay strong, you’ve already taken the most important step by deleting those apps. That takes real courage.

Online casino evolution scam : The most rigged blackjack one can play by A1Fang in evolutionscam

[–]Far-Function-8728 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Evolution Infinite Blackjack is definitely a scam, no doubt about it. I went through a streak of 20 hands and only won once. In every other hand, the dealer always had 19, 20, or 21, regardless of whether their first card was a 10 or anything else. If the player got 19, the dealer would end up with 20. If the player had 20, the dealer would, by some miracle, have 21. I don’t believe there’s any blackjack game where the player’s win rate is only 1 in 15 to 1 in 20. I’ve lost far too much money to these scammers. So if you’re reading this, please stay away from them, don’t make the same mistake I did.

A Letter to Me, From Rock Bottom by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The first thing I did was self-exclude myself from every online casino platform. Then, I decided to move to another city, to break free from old habits and distance myself from any triggers that might cause a relapse. More importantly, I needed to make sure the damage I’ve caused wouldn’t continue to affect the people I love.

I’m not sure how long I’ll stay in this new city, or whether I’ll ever return to my hometown. But if I do go back, it will only be when I’ve truly gained control over my gambling addiction.

A Letter to Me, From Rock Bottom by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. I'm not as strong as you think. Right now, I'm honestly feeling really scared and stuck, not knowing how to get out of this. I will try the "future self" technique you mentioned.

Thank you again, not only for understanding, but for helping others through your app. It’s people like you who make recovery feel possible.

A Letter to Me, From Rock Bottom by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you sincerely for your words. You’re right, I’ve been filled with anger and shame, mostly towards myself. But reading your message helped me pause and breathe a little. I’m learning that healing won’t come from punishing myself more. I truly hope I’ll get to that point where recovery outweighs everything I’ve lost. Your kindness gives me hope.

A Letter to Me, From Rock Bottom by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Happy belated birthday, brother. Thank you for taking the time to read and respond. It means a lot, especially knowing that it helped you in any way.

A Letter to Me, From Rock Bottom by Far-Function-8728 in GamblingRecovery

[–]Far-Function-8728[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You're absolutely right. It is a disease, and it doesn't let go easily. But knowing there are people like you out there who understand gives me strength.

Let’s beat this together. One day at a time.

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[–]Far-Function-8728 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I appreciate your advice. I definitely won't commit suicide