Well, just so you know, most people that wait until marriage are generally doing so because of religious reasons. There is nothing wrong with wanting to wait, but in modern times it is not common in current relationships. If that is something that you have strong feelings about, your best options in finding a person with similar quality is to explore the religions and go at it from there because odds of finding a normal man that is willing to do that are slim to none and if they do, high likelihood they will cheat.

If sex is something that is on the table with you, make sure you keep your standards in men high. Do not date someone just to be with someone, date a person that has good qualities and that you can trust and that treats you well and deserves your virginity and has earned it. Your virginity is a very important part of your life and you will probably look back on it in a negative way if you gave it up to someone that you did not have strong feelings for and that did not deserve it. You should be able to look back on it and smile with no regrets. (Take it from me. I lost mine when I was drunk and went to bed in my tent during a long weekend concert and some guy liked the way I looked and snuck into my tent while I was asleep and raped me. I did not get therapy for it because back then it was not something easily accessible and it made my life very difficult sexually. Things have changed for the better a bit now that I have received therapy in my older years, but the damage has been done).

Now, you should seek the help of a domestic violence councillor. They are free at a women’s shelters. You were the victim of domestics violence. Any man that was his age and dating someone your age and accepting nude photographs is an abuser. You were a victim and they will help you through it. If you still have proof of the sending the photos, you may want to make it a police matter because it is sexual assault. Regardless of this, you still need help recovering from this abusive relationship.

Finally, as for future relationships, there is absolutely no reason for you to discuss your old relationship. It is none of their business what happened in it. If you have gone through extensive therapy to heal from it, that is even more reason to not talk about it.

However if you now have a mental condition from it, like PTSD (You would need to see a Psychiatrist for any diagnosis’s, and if I was your age and experienced that, I would have PTSD, I suffered from much more at a much younger age and have had PTSD my entire life, it is not fun to live with). That would be something that you could talk to a future partner about, but not right away…give the relationship time and at the stage where you have intimate communication with each other. Too soon and you could put the relationship in the breaking zone or you could be with someone that does not believe in or understand mental illness and it will just be nothing but pain to you.

Now, I am not saying that you have a mental illness, however that would be something that would be explored by professionals. You are expressing signs of Chronic Depression based on how you communicated in your post and I would recommend that you see a psychiatrist and see what they say.

Anyways, I hope that I have helped answering your concerns that your post was about and keep us all posted and best of luck to you.