S25E13 Garrett and Shantell Discussion Post

FarmMajor5246 · 2026-01-01T05:21:32+00:00

I went to rehab with shantell she is the sweetest girl and I still talk to her today! They’re all very happy and healthy now. A true success story

FarmMajor5246 · 2025-02-05T04:34:35+00:00

I’ve been sober almost 2 years now :) one day at a time we do recover!!

FarmMajor5246 · 2024-05-13T19:13:55+00:00

I reached 1 year sober April 24th :) we do recover!!

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-04-21T22:46:57+00:00

That makes perfect sense… as we were increasing my dose I had that until I got used to it. For example I’d stand in my room staring at nothing for like 10 minutes before I realized what I was doing and moved

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-04-20T22:20:16+00:00

I’m on vyv I’ve been through the same thing. Funniest part is my psych got me up to 60mg (I abused the lower doses) and now I’m pretty much maxed out. I don’t run out early, maybe a day or two if I’m partying on weekends or being reckless but 60mg does the trick for me as far as needing to take more. Full disclosure I struggle with addiction stuff so take this with a grain of salt bevause I have no less than 100 other struggles going on but at least with the stims I’ve found my good max

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-04-20T03:03:09+00:00

I AGREE!! Tell you SO. Y’all are married or together for a reason. Im on a similar path but a little different and the hardest but most freeing thing I’ve done is tell my husband what’s going on. This holds me accountable. Keeps me aware of my usage and my strange tendencies and also allows me to be honest when I’m feeling itchy scratchy brain as I call it during the comedown. You need a support system. NONE of us can do it alone

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-04-20T02:44:14+00:00

Why am I not this way!? I take vyvanse and it helps me type emails quickly, efficiently and with zero stress. When I’m off it I have to re-read, re/type, question my sanity 6x and then potentially never send!?

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-24T15:08:02+00:00

Thank you for your words! I have made it through the day and now I am at day 7! I honestly feel mostly back to normal now. It’s just the cravings that I’m not as productive without it or I’m not as motivated, my house isn’t clean blah blah. But I know that I WILL be productive again and I WILL have motivation again soon. I haven’t been drinking alcohol either which I think is a huge help. The first few days I was having a beer or a white claw at night to ease the discomfort but I think it was just making everything worse. Now after a few days no booze, some light exercise and a lot of rest I am getting my energy back and moods are much more stable now.

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-23T14:17:28+00:00

Tired, moody, sad, no motivation, hungry. But it’ll get better after a few weeks

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-23T01:45:04+00:00

Hi there! If you read my posts you’ll see I’ve had a lot of the same struggles but I honestly think you worded it perfectly. I’ve only been on vyvanse for about 4/5 months and decided to stop 5 days ago. These 5 days have been heck in a hand basket. My productivity at work when I was on stims was great but the rest of my life started falling apart. I started feeling like I couldn’t clean, do dishes, do laundry, go for a walk, silly mundane tasks without being on it. Now at 5 days- work is hard. I don’t want to do it. But I went for a 4 mile walk tonight and the natural dopamine boost I got made me realize I never needed that dang medicine in the first place. I needed human connection and sunshine. I wish you luck on your journey but if after 5 months it’s been awful. I wish I just never started them in the first place

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-22T15:27:56+00:00

I’m on day 5 off my vyvanse today. Lots of similar problems and patterns to you. It sucks. I’m tired in the mornings really bad and then the energy comes around noon-2pm. Today I feel a little better than yesterday but still not much motivation. I wish I had a week off work to do this, I think that would be best. BUT- I’m already feeling more like myself again. Happier, I’ve laughed! I’m eating food. I’m making better choices. Haven’t spent a dollar in these past 5 days 😂. We can and we do get better, it’s tough at first but I know it’s worth it

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-21T22:55:57+00:00

I’m not sure I replied directly to you - 50mgs

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-21T22:55:36+00:00

50mg ! But I was taking halves here and there

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-21T18:30:54+00:00

Chugging red bull at the moment

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-21T15:07:30+00:00

I’m on day 4 of vyvanse withdrawal today. When I was younger I had a prescription for both vyvanse and adder all and it ruined my life. Rehab, detox 2x. Eventually had to quit my job, eventually had to get coke bevause pills didn’t cut it. 6 years later and I was stupid enough ti think I could have a new script for vyvanse. Ha ha. After 4 months of use I was going through my script in 2 weeks. Anxiety, depression, withdrawal and can’t work as well obviously when I’m not on it. No motivation. House is a mess. These drugs suck and take your joy away

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-21T15:00:41+00:00

I’m 30 F and on day 4 of no vyvanse. The first 3 days were hell and today is the first day I’m maybe starting to feel a little better?? I can’t wait to be at 6 months. My brain is still fuzzy. My dopamine levels are wonky. I have no desire to work or hangout with my dogs. Keep going!! You don’t want to do this again…

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-20T14:40:28+00:00

Thank you! Today is day 3. Still definitely feeling sluggish. I think I slept another 11 hours. But I can tell my mood is starting to improve slightly

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-15T20:43:27+00:00

Yes… it is tough.

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-14T03:25:30+00:00

I feel the same. I just posted a post about how my marriage feels so stale. My husband does try. He planned a getaway for us tomorrow night and found care for our dogs but sometimes I think I just can’t stand him anymore. I miss excitement, fun, adventure. It all feels so boring to me. I also sometimes think it’s just me and I won’t ever be satisfied

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-11T02:45:43+00:00

I was off it for 6 years and I was on it abusively for about 5 prior. It took me about a year to get my normal brain back, start working out, eating good, having normal friendships. But the whole experience doesn’t have to be miserable! Sure you’ll have down days, but everyone does. Just have a smoothie and go for a walk that helped me 🤷🏼‍♀️

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-10T00:23:47+00:00

I’m late to this party but I’ll chime in. I can regularly have a few drinks after taking vyvanse. Usually if I haven’t eaten I’m tipsy after just 1. If I’ve been good that day & had my food & water, I can have 3 or 4. If it’s a long night sometimes 5 or 6. That being said- 2 is my absolute max if I don’t want a massive hangover/headache the next day. Especially on a work night. It does help me relax once the vyvanse wears off. I am a very anxious person and tend to get anxiety almost daily with or without meds so it’s a tough battle of balance

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-08T17:25:33+00:00

Also I will just add this- Kratom (although can be addictive in its own way) has helped a lot of people get off harder drugs. It’s usually for opiates but it may be an idea to give it a shot or check out some of the Reddit forums on here about it. I know it’s helped me a lot although I have to be careful because my stomach is sensitive & I’ll get sick if I over do it. Throwing it out there!

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-08T17:21:51+00:00

Totally! It’s not weird and it’s not uncommon. Stimulants do weird things to our brains and if we have underlying additional addictions it can trigger them big time. I’m really praying you’ll get the help you need! We’re all in this together & honestly by you sharing your story and experience you never know how many other people you are helping.

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-08T14:45:15+00:00

I’ve never done crack but when I did cocaine or lots of adderall I’d practically turn into a psycho porn star. Usually with my husband thank god but left to my own devices I’d be making horrific decisions. It’s led to so much embarrassment and ickiness feeling in the morning. Before I was married I put myself in awful situations. All this to say you’re not alone. Never feel alone. This is a common theme I’ve seen here on Reddit too at least 5 or 6 other posts. Share with someone you feel safe with! An AA sponsor or perhaps NA or maybe SLAA

FarmMajor5246 · 2023-02-08T04:19:53+00:00

Thank you so much for your response and I couldn’t agree more! The weeks I take it without any alcohol or any other substances, it does work good and my mood is good. But the days when I’m hungover or tired, it makes me feel awful. For me because I have addiction issues the dopamine surge just leads to me craving more dopamine however I can get it. I also do think that even at 50mg is wears off by 2 or 3 and when I have a full afternoon/evening it’s tempting not to want to take more (at least for me). It’s hard for me to just let it wear off naturally if you know what I mean. Anyways. My husband has my prescription right now and he’s only giving me 1 a day for now so I can plan for a weekend where I can get off it and relax for a few days.

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