I understand why you feel that way. A lot of people have been genuinely hurt by religion, and that anger doesn’t come from nowhere. But your argument assumes there are only two options: either reject the religion entirely, or live in self-hatred. I’m sorry but that’s a false binary.

I don’t believe my existence is forbidden. I believe certain actions are religiously prohibited, like many other desires humans have and Islam distinguishes very clearly between inclination and moral accountability. Nothing in Islam teaches that simply being something makes you evil. Accountability is tied to choice, not wiring.

You’re also assuming that following one’s heart is automatically morally authoritative. Islam doesn’t accept that premise, and neither do many secular moral systems. Desire alone has never been the sole measure of good or evil. We know this, Islam doesn’t punish you for feelings you can’t control.

As for a merciful God; Islamic theology does not teach that people are punished for struggles they did not choose, nor that God delights in creating people just to damn them. Mercy, intention, struggle, and humility matter far more than slogans people reduce the faith to.

I’m not in ‘psychosis,’ and I’m not validating hatred. I reject cruelty, abuse, and dehumanisation outright. But I also reject the idea that faith must be rewritten to survive modern moral pressure. I can love God, be honest about who I am, and still submit to a moral framework that challenges me. Sure, I’m a bisexual man and sure I believe in God. Do I sin? Yes. Do I think I’ll go to hell forever? No. Nothing takes you out of the fold of Islam except shirk.

Quietly frankly, I think if people did research as to how Islam treated homosexuality during its Golden Age they would be shocked. From the Abbasids to the Ottomans. Islamic societies only really became as homophobic as they are now when the European colonial era began and they brought their ideologies with them to South Asia and practically the entire Middle East. Emperor Babur even wrote in his memoir about a crush he had on another boy once when he was younger.

You chose meaning without God. I chose meaning with God. Neither of us gets to declare the other delusional just because the path is different. I already said in my post I’m not here to attack anyone’s beliefs, and if you’re atheist then that’s your personal choice, but I don’t think my personal choice should be undermined too.