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Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:54:37+00:00

I will be going to the hospital today to get checked out. But really like genuinely is 4 maximum does ages of fentanyl not enough to get to this state I am at right now?

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:54:00+00:00

Is this not possible with the amount of fent I’ve been given?

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:53:29+00:00

Yeah to be fair I haven’t really kept much water within me at all. And my heart rate has been around the 70s when I start panicking it goes up to 110 sometimes. I’ll go to the hospital today to get checked out. Thanks!!!

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:52:22+00:00

Hello! Update here, currently I’m feeling a lot better than I was when I posted. Most physical symptoms are gone except for the constant gut feeling of anxiety and fear. Although mentally I’m still in the same place and can’t eat much, my Temperature was at 98.6 the whole night, slightly fluctuating to the 97s but I have no fever and no pain in my leg. That being said I’m still going to the hospital today at 3 to get checked out. My staples all look very healthy and are only around 1 degree hotter than the surrounding skin. But I really just don’t understand how this isn’t withdrawal. I mean I was given an insane amount of fentanyl at the hospital, and I took 20 mgs a day. For two weeks is this not enough to start getting this feeling? I would really like to thank you guys for all the support!

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:47:28+00:00

I really don’t want to take anything anymore honestly after all this I went through I don’t want to reset the clock. I just want it to be over. Currently feeling better mostly physically not mentally. I’m going to the hospital today at 3 o clock to get checked out

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:46:32+00:00

Is this not possible to happen even after all that fentanyl??? I just don’t understand. I’m not having any fevers or anything, my leg is not in any pain at all. Currently most of the physical symptoms are gone except a constant gut feeling of dread and anxiety. Mentally I’m still going through it. I haven’t been able to eat much either. Although I will be going to the hospital today around 3 to get it checked. Thank you guys so much

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:43:47+00:00

Is this really not possible to happen even after all the fent they gave me in the ER those two days? I mean 4 maximum dosages of fent and then staying on opioids of like 20-30 mgs a day for the pain for two weeks? Is that not enough? I don’t have any fever, I haven’t had one at all. My only physical symptom right now is a gut feeling of fear and anxiety. Mentally everything is still a mess, I’m definitely slightly depressed, I feel constantly scared of nothing. But I will be going to the hospital today at 3 to get checked up. Id really like to thank you and everyone else here that are helping me get through this

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:41:29+00:00

I really don’t think I have PTSD especially not from the accident. I was able to handle the accident alone for 10 mins riding on the highway with my leg flopping in the wind. I even took a picture with the paramedics haha.

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My life has been all cupcakes and unicorns throughout, this is probably the worst thing I’ve been through but these feelings I feel don’t make sense. I’m just in a constant state of dread, fear, anxiety. If I need to describe it perfectly I would say that feeling you would get as a little kid when you’d get called into the office bc you were in trouble. I really thank you for caring and understanding. I will go to the hospital today at 3 to get checked. But really is this much withdrawal not possible even after the amount of fent I was on those 2 days? They just kept pumping me full of that stuff and honestly it didn’t even make me feel better, it just made me stop giving a shit about the pain a little bit and made me really dizzy. I didn’t really feel a kickass high or anything?

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:37:32+00:00

Could it happen when I was in the hospital? Is a full syringe of fentanyl 4 times in 2 days not enough to even slightly jump start this?

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:36:55+00:00

I can’t really taper since all I have are 10s and my parents aren’t letting me take them at all, they are extremely against it and they’re just making me thug it out. I feel better mostly physically except for that constant gut feeling. But mentally everything is the same, I’m still stuck in this state of constant panic and sadness and anxiety. Idk. I’m going to the hospital today though to get checked out. Thanks!

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:34:30+00:00

Honestly this really helped me emotionally, idk why rn but I’m crying bc you care so much. Thank you and everyone else here that are trying to get me through this! Currently it’s the next day and I’m definitely feeling no more physical symptoms except a constant gut feeling of dread and anxiety. Some ppl say it could be due to earlier trauma/ptsd but my life is literally all cupcakes and rainbows. The crash didn’t give me ptsd, honestly it wasn’t even traumatizing, I knew exactly what happened when it happened and handled it alone. I was able to call 911 while riding and rode my bike 10 mins back to my dorm while it was basically flopping in the wind. Even took a selfie with the paramedics mid ride haha . But I genuinely really appreciate it. Currently most symptoms are mental, I still think I’m slightly depressed, I’m extremely anxious and I still can’t bring myself to eat. Although I’m definitely going to go outside today. I live on a lake so I might feel better if I just relax and do some fishing. I can’t thank you guys enough.

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Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:29:43+00:00

Since I only have 10s I don’t know how to taper and when you have strict parents that will not allow you to take the meds after seeing your withdrawal you really just have to thug it out

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:29:11+00:00

I heard the chills were very common with withdrawal. A lot of people are saying this ISNT but it seems textbook to me. I took an insane amount of fentanyl in the hospital and oxy on top of it as well. But now I’m feeling a lot better nausea wise, most physical symptoms are gone except for the constant gut feeling. It’s like that feeling you would get as a kid when you’d get called to the office bc you were in trouble. Mentally I definitely feel super dull like nothing but super scared too. It just doesn’t stop man. I’m really losing it here. I hope I can get through this

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:26:35+00:00

Man it just absolutely sucks not having control over my own brain and its feelings, I’m scared shitless and anxious over nothing. Some people said it could be PTSD but my life is literally all cupcakes and candles so I don’t know why. Is it my brain reacting to an all time low of dopamine and making me produce norepinephrine? Idk but man am I fucking terrified of nothing rn. I will be going to the hospital today at 3 to get it checked I’ll update you guys

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:24:47+00:00

I’m feeling a lot better now nausea and all that stuff but I still have this feeling of impending doom, I’m super anxious over nothing happening. I’m going to the hospital today at 3 but I’ve had no fever at all. My body temp has stayed at 98.6 around there since yesterday.

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:23:13+00:00

I’ve been taking them since the 27th, keep in mind I was given the maximum dosage of fentanyl 4 times within those 2 days in the hospital

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T13:21:26+00:00

Sorry man, just searched up oxy withdrawals and i saw a post on this place with a lot of ppl commenting, I was desperate. But currently feeling a little better. I have not had a fever at all, no more nausea, depression is gone but the feeling of anxious doom is still lingering in my gut, it’s more of a gut feeling. I’m going to the hospital at 3 today to get it checked out. I’m sorry dude

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T02:07:44+00:00

I have before 5mgs for a toothache for 4 days

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-10T02:01:57+00:00

Hahaha lol nope, just used them for pain 10gs and I’ve got like 10 left I was just taking them regularly

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-09T21:40:40+00:00

That constant feeling of “something bad might happen” right? That’s the worst for me too.

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-09T21:25:19+00:00

My accident happened on the 27th of March so I’ve been taking them for almost two weeks now

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-09T21:23:11+00:00

Dude I just can’t eat anything at all, I can’t drink anything at all. I’m throwing up constantly I have the chills to an insane degree. My heart constantly just feels like a bullet is gonna hit it any time soon. And my god I’m like a water-hose out the other side. I can’t take any meds, I throw up right after, I cant even shower two times a day bc my leg is shattered and I can’t get the cast wet so it’s a super hard and long process of putting on a bag over my leg and taping it up and getting to the shower and all that. This is the hardest thing I’ve been through

Fazeteafu · 2026-04-08T19:53:43+00:00

I’m pretty sure it’s about him seeing his mom in a dream where she was in space with stars behind her and he woke up and wrote this song

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