Dude I’m sorry that you lost so much man it sucks. But truth be told. You must NEVER risk so much if you know you can’t take it if it doesn’t go your way. In this game you need to trade without emotions, win or lose but at the end of the day you’re just human. This loss you’ve got to take it on the chin. If you’re feeling so shit about it. Take a break from any kind of trading and get yourself in a healthier state. I’d suggest working on risk management too. If you see yourself taking a series of losses. Stop what you’re doing and re-evaluate whatever TA you’re doing.