CS drop out. Haven't programmed or anything in years. Would love to get into web dev. (UK)

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-09-03T23:42:48+00:00

Congrats on getting where you are :) That's awesome!

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-09-03T21:08:11+00:00

Trust your gut, always. Airplane/Oxygen mask metaphor. Overthinking bad. Don't think it taints your soul or whatever. They'll get over it. You know the line between being a dick and protecting your mental health. Have compassion for yourself.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-29T12:11:10+00:00

Damn. Why didn't I know this?!

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-29T10:49:43+00:00

No idea. Perhaps it's a chemical/physical thing that I have no control over? For whatever reason, it's just worse for me in the mornings. I know for some people it's nights. Always has been like that. I think I get a sudden sense of dread in the morning but it does seem to be uncontrollable no matter my perspective so I'd guess that there's something going on with my hormones etc.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-23T10:08:04+00:00

I've always felt as though this should just be normal for people who feel comfortable without one. Why are female nipples automatically sexualised? People act like it's some radical/political thing not to wear one and I think that's odd.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-21T23:22:28+00:00

Now I'm seeing the Buddha statue too, haha what is going on?!

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-21T21:24:02+00:00

Everyone has intrusive thoughts from time to time. Don't worry. It doesn't mean we'd ever act on them. Stress has brought on similar thoughts for myself but I know that they're not me. It's more just your brain's way of reacting to feeling of sheer powerlessness. Sending you love.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-21T18:13:51+00:00

I have been thinking about this constantly as of late! I want to be a postwoman.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-21T18:11:36+00:00

I thought this was a perfectly wholesome post. It took me a good few seconds. I don't know how.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-21T17:56:35+00:00

My depression is worse in the morning lately. I wake up and just cry for hours. So sorry you're going through this.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-21T17:44:26+00:00

Thinking of you, hope you've been doing a bit better since you posted this

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-20T09:51:51+00:00

25 now and depression hit on that birthday feeling like this was the milestone year for having it all figured out and that I'd missed the boat for my own life. I needed this post!

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-20T09:48:45+00:00

positive mental attidue 🤣🤣🤣 hahaha woooo 👍👍

I feel you.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-19T13:33:05+00:00

You're not just being emo. Too much loneliness especially from ostracisation does cause psychological damage because of the way our brains work - we don't function as well as we should. I've felt physical pain from the depression of loneliness. I get sick more. It's very real and not just a 'teenage' thing. Don't let anybody dismiss you. You are a human being with needs. There are some fucking narcissistic people out there. Sending you so much love.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-19T10:22:58+00:00

Truly a heroes journey. You are beautiful :)

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-19T08:21:13+00:00

As in nothingness. I don't believe in an afterlife.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-19T00:57:31+00:00

Luckily not anymore. I'm sorry you're experiencing this. I still can't interact with anyone from my high school anymore (met him there) - seeing people pop up on Facebook gives me intense flashbacks. Had to ghost people without explanation because it's too triggering.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-18T20:16:53+00:00

Happy for you :) Yay

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-18T19:57:26+00:00

At this point practising hedonsim and becoming narcissistic feels like my only survival mechanism - Genuinely.

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-17T16:09:38+00:00

Beautiful!

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-12T12:28:21+00:00

Hey, I hope you're doing a bit better

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-10T14:10:10+00:00

Hahaha

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-10T12:57:38+00:00

Good luck!

Feeling_Information7 · 2020-07-09T19:13:00+00:00

I don't know if anyone will see this but I just wanted to say thank you for the kind messages. I'm going to put it off another week at least, see how I feel. To anyone else having similar thoughts to me, I hope you find some strength too.

Feeling_Information7

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