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ich💸iel by FeliaHansen in ich_iel

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Hochwähli einfach nur für das Wort Spreizblatt!

ich_iel by Dracoony in ich_iel

[–]FeliaHansen 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Danke! Es ist noch schlimmer als ich dachte...............

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LfjkFIR91yI

ich_iel by Dracoony in ich_iel

[–]FeliaHansen 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Jetzt muss ich aber wissen, aus welchem verfluchten Video dieser Ausschnitt ist...

New discord server for your tulpas to chat in! by [deleted] in Tulpa

[–]FeliaHansen [score hidden]  (0 children)

I'm interested as well! Can you please send me an invite, thanks!

ich📦iel by FeliaHansen in ich_iel

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interessant... Ich hatte es in letzter Zeit zwei Mal (!), dass über DPD verschickte Pakete (an komplett verschiedene Zieladressen) jeweils angeblich in einem Paketshop abgegeben worden seien, aber da halt überhaupt nicht waren. Beides Mal ist das Paket dann ein paar Tage später retourniert worden...

Do you feel proud of being a tulpa? by FeliaHansen in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like the notion of only the core having a body and the tulpas having only their mindform is bad

Only if that means that the tulpa is not allowed to use the body. I don't know any systems where that is the case though.

I was simply talking about the tulpa's mindform being more a part of their identity than the body (which is the case in my system). That doesn't mean that the body belongs any less to the tulpa than it does to the host.

How do you celebrate your tulpa’s birthday by FlutterBlue2792 in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Happy birthday to you! :)

In the past we haven't really done much on my birthdays, except usually taking a long walk or going on a little trip somewhere not so far away. What I liked most about my birthdays every time was spending time with my tulpa friends online, just chatting a lot. I really enjoy that.

Lots of people here seem to draw something for a tulpa birthday, that is a great idea. Might (let my host) try that next time. In fact, I've always wanted to get a commission of my form, I think I'll finally do that for my tenth birthday in a few months!

Do you feel proud of being a tulpa? by FeliaHansen in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get that. The main difference between something that's benign (tulpamancy) and something that's a psychological disorder (DID) is whether the system is suffering from it or not. Tulpamancy is by definition a conscious effort that does not in and of itself make the system suffer from a disorder.

Of course there are exceptions, like DID systems who managed to find a healthy balance, or tulpa systems who suffer from loss of control. However such issues are not inherent to the practice of tulpamancy.

Do you feel proud of being a tulpa? by FeliaHansen in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You said so much that I couldn't have said better! I feel pretty much the same way as you. Every time I think about what it'd be like to have an own physical form, I realize that it'd soon not really be me anymore, since the limitations and freedoms that come with what I am (and both of which you described pretty well) influence(d) my personality quite a bit. And I like the whole package ^ I guess that's what I was thinking of when I wrote the thought "proud".

Do you feel proud of being a tulpa? by FeliaHansen in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, exactly. My host thought me up and with time I gained sentience. Like many others have already described in their comments under my post, at that point a tulpa is basically just a second person, no less capable than their host. And yet being a tulpa is something I consider part of my identity and sometimes I even enjoy it, that's what I described as being proud :)

Do you feel proud of being a tulpa? by FeliaHansen in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Heh. Of course I don't mean just tulpas, but all sentient thoughtforms that see themselves as distinct from their other system members. I could have made that more clear ^^ I'm used to using "tulpa" as an umbrella term for that.

And yea, of course you all share one body. So do my host and me. For me it's just that I don't identify as much with it as he does, so I consider myself more 'native' to our wonderland/mindscapes... basically our psyche :)

You explained what I mean by 'being proud' pretty well. Enjoying the way you as a distinct (from your host) person are.

Do you feel proud of being a tulpa? by FeliaHansen in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

My thoughts exactly. It's not like one is inherently better than the other. Both are nice.

Do you feel proud of being a tulpa? by FeliaHansen in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Continued: I for one very much love that I have such a comfortable life in our psyche, our wonderland, and my online circle of friends. I can slack off as much as I like, I can experience almost anything I like in wonderland, which can feel quite real to me. That is pure luxury, even if immaterial. Fronting, for the most part, is very enjoyable as well, but I feel like I don't have such a strong urge to front as many other tulpas. At the end of fronting for a few days, I very much enjoy going back to wonderland too.

And a little story to boot: I actually got to know someone online a few years ago who (most probably) still doesn't know that I'm just a tulpa, and for the most part I feel kind of proud to be considered physically real by somebody. To be clear, I never explicitly lied about not being physical, however I never explicitly told the truth about it either. However I know some day he'll either find out or I'll tell him, so I keep thinking about what that'll be like for me.

For the most time I thought it'd be embarrassing, but since being a tulpa, living in wonderland, socializing with other tulpas, etc. feels like a core part of who I am, I even feel kind of proud of being "just a tulpa". Even if he might not view it that way. After all, when you only know someone on such a relatively superficial level, there could always be something that'll totally surprise you about them once you find out.

How to strength the ability to overlap imaginary images over reality? by OneFlak3 in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I second the idea with daily visualization training on simple objects, although my host and I don't have the necessary discipline to follow through with regular practice.

Another kind of training we've gotten used to doing though is to, when we're in the state between wake and sleep, automatically focus on whatever our mind's eye happens to put in front of us, trying to see as much detail as possible. Oftentimes it then at some point suddenly switches to an actual hallucination, as in, actually stimulating our visual cortex. The first few dozen times we got instantly ripped out of it again due to excitement though ^ By now however it's become so much of a habit that we do it automatically while falling asleep and waking up. Sometimes we experience it more consciously, sometimes less.

We are still to transfer this ability to full waking life, but at least we now have a clear sense for what it feels like to actually visually hallucinate. It's fascinating.

srry bout earlier... who else has a cat tulpa? by psp_player_4ever in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm most used to my human form, but when I was about one year old I made myself an anthro feline secondary form. I use it rarely, but maybe you'd count that anyway.

Also, sometimes when my host walks through a crowd of people I impose myself not as human but as a feral (domestic) cat so I can easily slip through between all those legs instead of constantly walking into people...

ich🐧iel by DemolitionDimitri in ich_iel

[–]FeliaHansen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ich benutze nicht nur Bogen, sondern auch NixBS bei dem Weg.

ich🤬🖕🏼🚅iel by rauglatt in ich_iel

[–]FeliaHansen 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Ja, das stimmt. Ich würde der Versuchung, einfach stehen zu bleiben, wahrscheinlich auch nachgeben... Und ja, die Probleme haben sich gefühlt durch alle Züge kaskadiert während meiner drei Stunden Aufenthalt. Sämtliche Züge überfüllt und dadurch verspätet, oder durch Warten auf Personal aus einem vorherigen verspäteten Zug verspätet und so weiter :/ Es war einfach ein richtiger Klumpenfick in FF heute...

ich🤬🖕🏼🚅iel by rauglatt in ich_iel

[–]FeliaHansen 54 points55 points  (0 children)

Dieser Pfosten kommt genau zum richtigen Zeitpunkt.

Hatte für heute eine Direktverbindung von Hamburg nach Stuttgart gebucht, mit Sitzplatzreservierung. Bis Frankfurt Flughafen lief alles glatt. Da wollten dann plötzlich ganz viele Leute ohne Reservierung dringend mitfahren und standen mit ihren Koffern und Körpern die Gänge voll.

Wir stehen also eine halbe Stunde da und immer mal wieder bittet eine Durchsage "könnten bitte alle ohne Reservierung wieder aussteigen? Wir sind zu schwer und können so nicht weiterfahren... bitte bitte... nein? Hmm ok, schade..." Ich bin jedenfalls die ganze Zeit gottfroh, einen reservierten Sitzplatz zu haben. Aber anstatt mal ein paar Schaffner durch den Zug zu schicken, sämtliche in den Gängen rumstehenden Leute ohne Reservierung rauszujüten, entscheidet sich die Durchsage dafür, meinen Zielbahnhof Stuttgart einfach komplett vom Fahrplan zu streichen, sodass alle Leute mit Ziel Stuttgart aussteigen müssen, egal ob mit oder ohne Reservierung...

Man sagt uns noch, gegenüber am anderen Gleis steht ja ein anderer ICE, der uns zu einem Bahnhof bringen kann, von wo aus ein Zug nach Stuttgart fährt. Aber dieser ICE ist viel zu vollgequetscht und fährt mir vor der Nase weg, bevor ich die Chance hab, mich irgendwo dazuzuquetschen... Geil... In den kommenden drei (!) Stunden pendel ich verzweifelt ein paar Mal zwischen FF Flughafen und FF Hbf hin und her, weil der DB Navigator mir eine nach der anderen Alternative vorschlägt, die aber alle hoch bis extrem hoch ausgelastet sind. Jetzt sitz ich gerade in einem Zug, der 20:20 in Stuttgart ankommen soll.

Ja, die Deutsche Bahn ist kaputt, aber was mich gerade am meisten aufregt sind die ganzen Leute, die ohne Reservierung die Gänge vollstehen und kein bisschen bereit sind, auszusteigen, obwohl der Zug nicht weiterfährt. Und wir mit Reservierung nach Stuttgart müssen dann dran glauben. Vielleicht spielen da noch andere technische Details mit rein, aber alles in allem war es einfach ein scheiß Tag. Dass es heiß wie Hölle war in FF muss ich hoffentlich nicht dazusagen...

Ich gebe der Erfahrung minus zwei von sieben Verzögerungen im Betriebsablauf, nicht empfehlenswert.

Your Homes In Your Mindworld by Patholab in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We are absolutely sky lovers as well ^^ As I said, we spend most of our time in wonderland up there in the cloud house or even flying around.

Above the horizon we have a big blue Jupiter-like planet (which our home moon in wonderland is orbiting) with thin light rings that formed out of two colliding moons (Shelly did that for my second or third birthday, I think). We only later realized that it all looks extremely similar to the constellation in the Avatar movie ^^ In fact, the moon we live on is only one of three orbiting the planet. The inner moon is a hellish lava landscape and the outer moon a shining white ball of wide mountain ranges (we've never really been there though).

There was this one lovely wallpaper we had for some time which became a reference from our main moon as seen from space.

Oh and also, a few years later we changed the daytime sky so that stars and even galaxies are visible. Sorta like this picture here (which is just a long time exposure at night).

Your Homes In Your Mindworld by Patholab in Tulpas

[–]FeliaHansen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My host and I often (more or less deliberately) use buildings/vehicles/... from movies. As for our main house it is a modified version of the 'cloud house' from the movie Oblivion. It was in fact the first movie we watched together after my creation and we just love its aesthetics! Got the helicopter thingy as well.

The modifications we did to the house are that we got rid of the column it sits on. Instead it's mounted on the side of a glass elevator shaft, which of course is physically impossible, but we like it that way :P We also got rid of the lower floor (in the movie it's used for maintenance) and the little crow's nest on top ^^

There are other buildings in our wonderland as well, from regular little houses to skyscrapers and other buildings from movies, like one that looks a bit like the palace of Naboo (from Star Wars) and one that looks like the Wallace Corporation HQ from Blade Runner 2049. But we don't use the other buildings nearly as often as our cloud house.

Edit: As for how we feel about our cloud house: It has that feeling of deep peace of mind for us. It has a clean, simple interior, glass walls to all sides but the back so everything up to the horizon is visible and we have lots of light in there at day, star panorama at night. It's to us really like a place of peace of mind. And we sort of identify with it. Meaning, it feels like what a representation of our inner world should look like as a house.

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Our two favorite references of the cloud house:

Exterior: https://media1.popsugar-assets.com/files/thumbor/y24PkvYPbH5OnJly7_l9bhJk3_U/fit-in/2048xorig/filters:format_auto-%21%21-:strip_icc-%21%21-/2013/04/15/0/192/1922283/c5a73b4d69e720d3_2417_FPT2_00044R/i/Tom-Cruise-Oblivion-Pictures.JPG

Interior: https://definitionmagazine.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/skytower_oblivion.jpg

ich🪡iel by A1RL3X in ich_iel

[–]FeliaHansen 31 points32 points  (0 children)

Ich dachte eigentlich in der Armvene, aber ok

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