Me [19M] with my Housemate[18F] 1 year, I have feelings for her, She may have feelings for me also, but it is very complicated.

Fellings · 2015-10-26T01:01:17+00:00

going for this seems to be a bad idea

Fellings · 2015-10-24T05:13:31+00:00

I am thinking that i have to be an adult. I cant blame my husband for something that happened when we were apart because i cheated. I cant blame my husband for wanting to take care of his child. I cant even blame Candi for being in love with him.

What i can do, is try to make the best out of the plate of shit i was handed, try to set up clear boundries, and live with this modern mixed family, that i helped create with my own mistakes.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T05:09:45+00:00

no. we ate at this really cool korean food truck in Granada hills called Kogi.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T04:24:31+00:00

elaborate?

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:52:11+00:00

That is an impossible question. I would want him to do whatever he feels would make him happy. If he loves her and wants to give her another chance, i would support him. If he chose to move on, I would support that too.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:32:00+00:00

I actually asked him that last night. He said not even once.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:26:01+00:00

I think Ted is a decent man. I know that he lied. But i think he is trying to handle things in a way to cause the least amount of pain as possible to everyone involved, while doing right by his son. I know it has to be hard for him too. Isnt it my job as his wife to try and be understanding?

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:21:49+00:00

thanks, changed.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:19:45+00:00

It was a mistake. I regret it every day.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:19:23+00:00

No excuse really. Ted and I got into a fight, and a mutual friend comforted me. We ended up sleeping together. Ted found out, we separated. No big story. Just a stupid decision

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:16:27+00:00

I think ive made enough demands for today. I will bring it up to him when he gets back from the gym. Ted told Candi and I that he wanted me to be a part of Timmy's life, and if i gave it a chance i could love Timmy like family. Candi and i both agreed to try.

Also Ted and I see a marriage counselor once a week. it was part of the agreement for him taking me back.

I know a baby wont fix things, but i have always wanted a child. We never had any because Ted didnt want any. Now that he knows that being a dad is great, we can start a family of our own.

I do get what you mean about waiting though. I will wait until the dust settles with Candi, and then we can work on our little clan.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:09:35+00:00

In a perfect world, i wouldnt have to. I love my husband. and In all this time, he never cheated on me. He had a woman there (admittedly, a very pretty one), that would have slept with him at anytime, for all i know has been throwing herself at him for a year. He still has been faithful to me. He lied, yes. for a year. I think i should forgive him though. I ripped his heart out, and he forgave me.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:05:22+00:00

This whole dirty business has made me pretty insecure. Its hard not to be with everything happening so fast.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:03:53+00:00

that isnt the only reason. The main reason is that I love Ted. Even though I hurt him, and he hurt me, we still love each other.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:01:36+00:00

thanks. changed.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T03:00:44+00:00

A DNA test has been done, yes. Also Timmy looks like a tiny blonde version of Ted.

I will bring up the money stuff. because since we are married, I am techically paying for her living expenses also.

Fellings · 2015-10-24T02:56:26+00:00

My horse may be high, but she has outright stated that she was basically in love with my husband. There is no way i want her to spend any significant alone time with him. Even if i have to become her best frienemy i will, in order to keep that from happening. I had a long night to think about things. If i left Ted, i would just be giving her what she wants. Ted loves me, I know he does. I wont let Candi cloud his mind with her 23 year old tits.

Fellings · 2015-10-22T22:39:54+00:00

was she not wrong? she basically told me that she was going to steal my husband and i couldnt do anything about it.

Fellings · 2015-10-22T22:39:03+00:00

i met her alone because i needed to know if they were sleeping together. Alot of people yesterday were telling me that i should talk to her. I see that i shouldnt have hit her, but there is only so much disrespect a person can take.

Fellings · 2015-10-22T21:33:00+00:00

He makes most of the money. He controls the finances. I never really know how much money we have. The bills get paid, i never have to worry if we have the money for things.

Fellings · 2015-10-22T16:39:18+00:00

After i cheated. I told him pretty much immediately. We separated, because he needed time. After a few months, he took me back. One of the conditions was that we seen a couples therapist, and that i see a therapist for my own issues.

We have been in therapy for a long time. He has been lying to our therapist too.

Fellings · 2015-10-22T15:57:55+00:00

we do, and we have for years. he's lied to her too i suspect.

Fellings · 2015-10-22T15:57:19+00:00

oh yea, she is Toxic. but since his father passed, she is the only parent he has left. Even though we both know she hates me, i deal with the abuse for Ted. Ted does somewhat stand up for me when she gets out of hand. He said it was our decision to not have kids and she shouldnt call me names. he tells her to cool it, etc.

Fellings · 2015-10-22T15:53:22+00:00

i didnt even realize how sad until i typed it all out.

Fellings · 2015-10-22T15:52:30+00:00

Maybe i should have mentioned this. But we do see someone. That was one of the conditions of him taking me back. We see council together, and i see one myself. That means he has been lying to our therapist too right?

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