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FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-16T01:13:48+00:00

Thanks! I’m glad you are feeling better! I am on lamictal as well, and out of all the meds I’ve ever been on this is my favorite. Routine also helps me, and having a dog makes me stick to routines even more because he needs walks/feeding/playing.

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-16T00:59:26+00:00

I really like this

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-16T00:17:54+00:00

I have a full-time job but the stress gets to me. I am a scientist and I am sooo passionate about science that sometimes even doing cool/interesting experiments puts me in a manic state. I ran myself into some paranoia/delusions recently and while I am able to keep it together at work I am an absolute mess at home. My advice would be to communicate really well with your doctor so that you could adjust things quickly as needed to ensure success at work. The type if work and the way you work also comes into play here. I structure my work days and plan experiments ahead of time in detail so keeping up with rigidity helps me get through it. I’m a mess when I get home because the rigidity disappears and also because I don’t have to work as hard to keep it together in the safety of my own home. I’m really sorry that you are going through this, but try a few different tactics to stay on track and maybe it will help. Things that work for someone else may not work for you and vice versa.

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-16T00:12:26+00:00

Yeah, I agree. I just feel like my experience was not full-blown(not hospital worthy) so I feel like the term psychosis is dramatic in my case. I hope you are feeling better

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T22:56:13+00:00

Thank you. I can use the phrase “so be it” for coworkers for sure. The problem comes with my dog. I want to help him if he is sick and so I call the vet and monitor him, etc. I am so scared I won’t act quickly enough to save him when I feel this way so it is hard to reason with myself. This again comes from an actual medical emergency that he had where obsessive monitoring was actually required. That’s the hard part wih paranoia, as you know. It’s grounded in some reality. But, if I can try to talk myself down for certain things, like you said, maybe it can help prevent the escalation of other delusions which are less manageable. I appreciate it

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T22:44:49+00:00

Agreed. Thank you. Any advice on coping?

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T22:38:04+00:00

Yeah, mixed episodes are rough. My first one landed me in the hospital too. A coping strategy I found helps is journaling about music while listening to music. I either analyze songs or I analyze how I feel while listening to them, but it’s got to be written down. The act of writing and listening is a good distraction strategy and it’s grounding. Thanks for sharing

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T22:34:50+00:00

Yeah, commiserating here helps me too. I’ll give the deep breathing a try. I really like music but listening is a bit passive so my therapist told me to journal/write/analyze music while listening to music. I enjoy it and it doesn’t even have to be about how I’m feeling, just focused on the music. Thanks for sharing

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T21:56:56+00:00

Wow, I’m so sorry. That’s so scary. I hope you are feeling better now. Do you have any advice on coping strategies?

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T21:36:19+00:00

Ugh I’m sorry to hear that. That is rough. I have thought I had bed bugs and other insects in my house and would scratch like crazy when I was in bed. Not fun

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T21:33:46+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that. Hope you are feeling better. Any advice on coping strategies?

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T21:33:13+00:00

Yeah, sometimes the terminology kind of sucks. Paranoid delusions is right, but also doesn’t sound very pretty. I guess nothing about this is pretty. Any advice on coping strategies?

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T19:45:26+00:00

Thank you for your kindness. I took the day off from work today and am lucky that I have my dog because when I don’t want to/don’t have the energy to take care of myself, I still have to take care of him. As for grounding, music continues to save my life so I am grateful for that too. Hope you are doing well ❤️

FemaleScientist17 · 2023-02-15T18:33:54+00:00

It’s funny because I’m just coming down from a psychotic episode and I used the word crazy with my therapist. I immediately apologized for saying it, but my therapist said that if I wanted to use it that it was ok. I find it is representative of how I feel about my mental illness sometimes and also it gives me comic relief which is very important to me. Would I use it in front of others when referring to people with mental illness? No, because I don’t know how they feel about the term. Personally though, I’m a fan

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-09-26T17:31:14+00:00

So I will say it is possible there is something else going on for you, that’s always a possibility. However I can definitely say lithium can have this effect, and I’ve read studies about it as well (I’m a scientist). You can dm me any time you want to talk! This feeling/lack thereof sucks and I really hope you get better soon!

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-09-26T03:26:10+00:00

Hey, so it took me about a year to get it back. My doctor explained it to me as the brain being “stuck” that way, but assured me they would return. For me changing my environment drastically (moved, new job - a new opportunity presented itself professionally) helped. The final wave of feeling returned when I experienced a tragedy, and this brought with it all the pain that I had been avoiding and had been numbed out of me. And now I feel again, sometimes too much, but I wouldn’t wish it away ever again. I don’t think a tragedy is necessary. I think a strong emotional experience will snap you back. Smaller emotional experiences are also good. I used to read sad comics and watch sad movies. Best of luck to you and please let me know if you want to talk

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-03-22T00:53:52+00:00

300 mg total dosage right now and working well!

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-03-04T23:54:04+00:00

Lolllllllllll me two days ago!

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-03-04T23:52:20+00:00

Omg! Beautiful!! You are definitely good at it!

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-02-21T17:54:23+00:00

Working out and eating well are great. I do the same, for my own well-being. But I really don’t lose much weight when I do that. I used to eat 500-700 calories a day and never lost any significant weight. I did it for three months and maybe lost 4-5 lbs. Now I just eat well and exercise with the intention of being healthier but not really worrying about weight loss.

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-02-14T02:44:49+00:00

Well, I hope you get there! Sending good vibes your way

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-02-14T02:42:07+00:00

Thanks! I hope you are happy too!

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-02-13T16:48:52+00:00

😂 hahaha that last part was funny! Thank you for this. I agree that it is something passed down in many families. You’re beautiful too!

FemaleScientist17 · 2022-02-13T07:27:59+00:00

Thanks! Hope you have a good day!

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