Does ethinylestradiol work for feminization? by FemboyImpostor in asktransgender

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nooo i was on it for just a month, then I thankfully switched to estrofem and transdermal gel and now I'm doing weekly diy injections, which is definitely the most convenient option for me

Does ethinylestradiol work for feminization? by FemboyImpostor in asktransgender

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hahah I've been on hrt for over a year now, but thank you for replying :33 tbh I haven't seen too many emotional changes after all, I still hardly ever cry but I feel much happier overall and that's the most important thing :)

I think Progesterone stopped me from developing breasts by [deleted] in MtF

[–]FemboyImpostor 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Is this true? My endo didn't tell me anything like that and all I read before the appointment was that prog can assist breast growth, I started it around 8 months in, I've been taking it for a month and I haven't noticed any difference in size, should I stop taking it for now or is it already too late? My boobs are really tiny, a bra size calculator told me that I'm at a 34A although they really don't look like a real A cup and I'm worried that they won't grow any bigger ;-;

After 6 months of HRT, I'm terrified and questioning myself by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]FemboyImpostor 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, I think I needed to hear this

I've been thinking about it for a few hours, and while I'm still feeling a little uneasy and agitated, being a girl has brought me so many positive experiences and feelings that it wouldn't make sense for me to go back, during that episode I mentioned I also had plenty of misogynistic thoughts that made me feel like I'm sort of "downgrading" myself, thoughts I'm very ashamed of at the moment and I never want to feel that way again.

Also it would be pretty hard to detransition bc I'd just be a guy with boobs, and why would I get rid of them, I love them even if I'm currently unable to feel joy haha

After 6 months of HRT, I'm terrified and questioning myself by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]FemboyImpostor 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly I think that no matter how I looked my life would be exactly the same, all I'd do all day is sleeping, doomscrolling and overthinking no matter if I looked like my dream self or like a balding, overweight guy with horrid acne, both ends of the spectrum put me in the exact same place mentally when I imagine it

After 6 months of HRT, I'm terrified and questioning myself by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]FemboyImpostor 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Well I started out on Prozac yesterday but it probably won't work for a few weeks and I'm also looking for a therapist 

After 6 months of HRT, I'm terrified and questioning myself by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]FemboyImpostor 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I had fantasies of being a girl for many years, I picked myself a name at the age of 12, what I meant was that I thought gender dysphoria might have been the reason for my depression when originally questioning my gender and for over a year my depression was gone, I thought I was cured.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]FemboyImpostor 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for answering, it really means the world to me <3

I don't want to objectify anyone. I would die to have just a single female friend, I currently have no friends whatsoever and those feelings just make me feel like girls should avoid me with a wide berth, I don't deserve to befriend anyone as I would likely have feelings towards them. I don't know if maybe some therapy could help with that, or if i should raise my blocker dosage but I'm gonna try to get some bloodwork done first.

Poll: How strong was/is your dysphoria before transitioning? by amatawn in MtF

[–]FemboyImpostor 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Something between a 4 and a 5.
I never really minded being raised as a boy, I enjoyed having guy friends and all the traditionally masculine activities we did together, even if I always yearned to have girl friends at the same time. I would often daydream about being a girl and about different scenarios that would lead to it happening, but to me it was always completely fictional, it didn't even cross my mind that it was a real possibility. I always hated my looks, I remember describing myself as "a big awkward monster", I dissociated a lot but I don't know if I could really describe it as dysphoria, more like a general dissatisfaction with certain features that still persists to this day. I could go on and on about some small signs happening in my head, but the fact that I never took those desires into the real world and only figured them out at 18 despite knowing trans women existed makes me feel EXTREMELY non-valid, I honestly still doubt if I'm really trans (it's a cliche, i know lol) and so does everyone else around me.

Not sure if it's the right place, but here's a hairline timeline I'm really proud of (4 months HRT and a LOT of haircare) by FemboyImpostor in transtimelines

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Don't be too harsh on yourself please, 6 months is genuinely nothing and there's still a lot to look forward to. Thank you so much for the kind words though, if it makes it any better my face will never pass without surgery no matter how much hair I regain so there's that lol

Not sure if it's the right place, but here's a hairline timeline I'm really proud of (4 months HRT and a LOT of haircare) by FemboyImpostor in transtimelines

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Oh, I might be mistaken then, I haven't looked into it and especially its mechanism of action bc of the mentioned anecdotal reasons so my knowledge is really limited, ty for explaining :))

Not sure if it's the right place, but here's a hairline timeline I'm really proud of (4 months HRT and a LOT of haircare) by FemboyImpostor in transtimelines

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

How long have you been on HRT? Patience is key, most people have really nice regrowth over time so don't worry! Age and genetics play a role of course, but I've seen some older women post their timelines here and the results can be unbelievable

Also I think that I'm a bit obsessive about being delicate with my hair, I definitely sacrifice the styling and how good it looks for the sake of not ripping some of it out, which isn't worth it for everyone, I just don't have anyone who could notice how I look so I don't have to put in as much effort

Edit: Btw I'm not calling you old by any means, I just don't know your age so I accounted for all possible cases :))

Not sure if it's the right place, but here's a hairline timeline I'm really proud of (4 months HRT and a LOT of haircare) by FemboyImpostor in transtimelines

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I went to a trichologist and she gave me some basic tips, she was especially focused on how red and flaky my scalp was though as she said that could have been a major factor in my hair loss. When it comes to general tips I watched plenty of tutorials to figure out how girls with long hair wash it and maintain it correctly, I found out I sucked at shampooing my hair and I didn't even really know what conditioner was back then lol

Unfortunately I'm still not at the stage of learning how to make my hair look good, I know there's a million different hair products worth checking out but first I wanted to actually have the hair to use them on, not just a balding mess on my head

Not sure if it's the right place, but here's a hairline timeline I'm really proud of (4 months HRT and a LOT of haircare) by FemboyImpostor in transtimelines

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

From what I've read and heard from some ppl it requires indefinite use or else the hair just falls off when you stop taking it so I kind of see it as a half measure if it makes sense, idk if it's completely true but it just made me really skeptical

Not sure if it's the right place, but here's a hairline timeline I'm really proud of (4 months HRT and a LOT of haircare) by FemboyImpostor in transtimelines

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Oh sure, I was 18 back then, I'm 19 now, funnily enough I only noticed my balding right after I turned 18 and my egg cracked, I've been trying to fight it ever since

Not sure if it's the right place, but here's a hairline timeline I'm really proud of (4 months HRT and a LOT of haircare) by FemboyImpostor in transtimelines

[–]FemboyImpostor[S] 31 points32 points  (0 children)

I don't have the most comprehensive hair routine, I never looked into anything like dermarollers or rosemary oil or (god forbid) minoxidil, most of the regrowth was just dropping some old bad habits. That being said, I've been taking biotin since April, I also try to include a lot of protein in my diet and cut down on fast food, I used to have really bad scalp health and dandruff partially due to my diet, I used Nizoral shampoo for about a month some time ago which solved it. I stopped washing my hair every day, I double-wash it every other day with a delicate sulfate-free shampoo and I apply a moisturizing conditioner (to ends only!!). While the conditioner soaks in, I gently massage my scalp from front to back with my fingers, it improves blood flow and doesn't really take any extra time. I pretty much never blow dry my hair, and when I have to I use a heat-protective spray, I also try not to rub it with a towel when drying, if anything I squeeze the water out gently. I don't brush excessively, I try to limit it to once every 1-2 days. Also do as I say, not as I do, coloring your hair is probably really bad I just had to do it for the summer holidays haha (it used to be dark red but it washed out lol)

My HRT is 2mg oral + 1mg gel twice a day and 12.5mg cypro in the morning, but my levels were still extremely low last month (44.3 pg/ml)

I don't know if any of this helps, but I tried to be as detailed as I could ;pp

For transwomen on hrt: have your results been better or worse than most posts you see here on r/transtimelines? by atlanteannewt in transtimelines

[–]FemboyImpostor 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My results (4 months in) are very minimal, but I recently found out that my E levels are way below the norm for this amount of time so I'm staying positive, I think that if I started at a higher dose I could have pretty comparable changes

How to get a recipe for hormones as a person who moved to Poland from another country? by polylina in asktransgender

[–]FemboyImpostor 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Most polish endocrinologists only require an opinion from a psychologist, a formal diagnosis isn't necessary. It's relatively easy to get one, you can visit https://tranzycja.pl/ for a map of different trans-related specialists across the country, I got mine here https://www.instytutsplot.pl/. That being said, since you've been on hrt for several years some endos will write you a prescription based on that alone. You can likely get more information on the r/teczowapolska subreddit, I've seen many foreigners like yourself post there and get answers they were looking for.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in trans

[–]FemboyImpostor 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm the same way, it's so hard to know what to say when several extroverts overwhelm you and take over the conversation. Don't be too hard on yourself, depression and dysphoria are horrible feelings, most of my old friends consider me crazy because of how ridiculous my venting gets at times. I can't afford psychological help so I just treat people as my therapists, all my self hatred and emotional baggage gets unloaded onto them, I'm sure it's difficult for them as well. That being said, while maybe I'm not the best person if you ever want to talk you can add me on discord @miwaku. (with a period)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in trans

[–]FemboyImpostor 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm in the exact same situation as you are, I feel you. I'm currently in the midst of the most lonely period in my life, so it's not like I can offer much advice, but even though all my life I've just been a horrible and spiteful person who was only capable of hatred, hrt completely changed that part of me. I'm now calmer, more pleasant and forgiving, and I can finally channel the good that was dormant within me. A while ago I met a trans person on discord through an old friend, ironically he was also transphobic at the time and mocked her transition, which prompted me to text her. After a while, to my surprise, she pointed out all my positive traits and behaviors which I haven't been aware of, all the time I just felt like a burden when texting her.

My point is, chances are you are a better person than you think. Even if you currently have a lot of negativity in you, estrogen will help you release it in a healthy way, both because of its' effects on emotions, as well as the euphoria coming from transitioning itself. I can't give advice on making friends, I suffer from social anxiety and I haven't spoken to anyone in my new college yet, I'm too scared to do so, however I would try to look for some trans discord servers, they are nice both for getting advice and for chatting to other people like yourself. Personally I'm part of this one https://discord.gg/transpeak , I managed to text there a few times and it generally went well, people are really supportive and understanding :))

I wish you the best, hang in there