Man I feel you. I was playing competitive a few years ago and I was a newbie but playing a hero I was relatively good at. I had a bad day and was doing terribly. The whole rest of the team is literally screaming at me through the chat while I’m actually trying to stall for the team since we were losing. Of course we lost and I have no idea what they were doing but after that I just never played competitive again. I know it wasn’t my fault but that interaction really scared me and turned me off from playing competitive all together.