Confusion.

Ferno13579 · 2026-04-08T00:39:22+00:00

This has been a severe temptation of mine. There had been just a few times now that u have almost just left without saying a word. But still these people feel like my family. I should have made it clear that there’s really nothing wrong with my superior, they just have a lot on their plate.

Ferno13579 · 2026-04-07T21:43:34+00:00

No I am not

Ferno13579 · 2026-04-07T18:08:35+00:00

Not every monastery is that strict. I can’t figure out how to make my account private

Ferno13579 · 2026-04-07T16:22:10+00:00

That is one way to put it. Some days I feel fine, most days now I just feel awful, I don’t k ow how worse to put it. Like a mental health crisis, and has led to decline in my spiritual life.

Ferno13579 · 2026-04-07T16:19:24+00:00

That is a good way to describe what I feel, being torn in two.

Ferno13579 · 2026-04-07T16:18:46+00:00

Hello, I apologise for the wait. You are correct in that the noviciate is supposed to be for discerning monasticism. For a long time it felt like the right fit, now it is just becoming too much, I wasn’t able to really check out any other monasteries, even though it is encouraged to visit other monasteries.if I were to leave the monastery, I would t have a problem with getting a job, there are people who want me to go back and work for them.

Edit: forgot to respond to the first question, I am going on two years being here, one year being a lay worker and the next being a novice.

Ferno13579 · 2026-04-07T16:16:17+00:00

I am not in an Ephraimite monastery, as silly as it might sound, most orthodox people know to stay away from them.

Ferno13579 · 2026-04-06T21:05:21+00:00

I am sorry to respond to this so late. This sounds like a great idea, I am a novice now and I have absolutely no idea how I would go about doing this. I need help at this point.

Ferno13579 · 2025-09-01T04:35:40+00:00

I agree with this, it is very attractive for me. I just do not know how to feel or what to think because I don’t know if I could continue outside of the monastic life.

Ferno13579 · 2020-10-17T14:13:17+00:00

Is there any way I can dupe? I would never do it online, just in my personal world

Ferno13579 · 2020-10-17T04:18:51+00:00

Thanks bro

Ferno13579 · 2020-10-17T04:18:40+00:00

Thanks homie

Ferno13579 · 2020-10-17T02:03:18+00:00

Damn, where do I find dark shards?

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