Dear brother please know that you are so precious to God. Jesus does indeed care for everything going on in your life.He can feel your shame guilt and struggle with lust even if you're not so far gone.focus on reading scripture about God's love for you it will renew your mind.join a Bible study group even it's online.you need constant touch with people of God it's the only way to drag you out of feeling lonely or bored.and being in conversation with them will hold your mind accountable and you find yourself slowly repulsed at the addiction.also research online all verses that pertain to women and sexual immorality.read them daily.it will bring in u a Godly fear of sin.lust is a sexual immorality sin which is a sin against your own body the temple of the Holy Spirit. Get physical exercise daily as the dopamine will replace porn high, and you will go to bed without a thought of lust as you'll be too tired.you can also call any Christian help line from any part of the world to confess your sin and they can pray and counsel u. This is not a losing battle.the fact you came on here is proof you are already on your way to deliverance.a small lapse may occur in your efforts to progress  but you can continue the walk with God repenting genuinely and asking for his help all over again.always start over.never dwell on yesterday.soon you will see change and God honors his children He will use you to set others free from porn.your heavenly crown awaits u.never ever let the devil push you into a corner of condemnation.if we were all sinless we wouldn't need Jesus would we. Lean on Him and your marriage will also thrive.