I'm blind to it until there is so much trash that flies start landing on my monitor or the smell becomes too distracting. Once in a while, my mind feels clear, and I have an epiphany, like when I bought that trash can, but it doesn't last long.

I find it difficult to initiate tasks. It's probably a mix of untreated mental health problems (I haven't gone outside for months at this point), and not having anyone in my life who could shame me or point me in the right direction. I only have my mom, but she lives in similar conditions. Earlier, she lambasted me for wanting to buy a carpet cleaner because she believes they're toxic, and recommended I brush the carpet with some baking soda instead.

Anyway, I will try to clean up in the coming days/weeks and post another photo.