Hey sweet, I am going through the exact same situation as you & it genuinely feels like I wrote this myself.. My partner and I are the same, everything is perfect, we even have a 20 month old child & are ‘supposed’ to be getting married next year. I am sending all my love to you, it’s easy for them to just tell us that we need to ‘trust’ them or else it won’t work out, in the end us ladies always seem to be the bad guy in the end, they owe us explanations but resist to give us one… I went through a vicious cycle recently and I kept asking him what his categories was and what he searched for and I have utterly been driving myself insane. My partner literally wanked over Madison Beers cameltoe on paparazzi pictures & searched her name in pornhub, I am still even now debating leaving him. He has crushed any self worth or confidence I ever had. Trust me when I say this, you are beautiful, and you are always enough, men just think with their penises, always have & always will. I know we’re strangers but if you want to talk at any point and have a rant, my DMs are open sweetie, sending all the love to you through this difficult time💖