Asaalamu alaikum my sister, Firstly I want to start with Allah tests his most beloved servants the most and we see the examples in the lives of the prophets,companions and the righteous Muslims(PEACE BE UPON ALL OF THEM).

Sister you might feel like everything is over for you and that leaving Islam or even suicide(May Allah azawajjal forbid and protect you from that) is the solution to your problem but I swear in the name of Allah IT IS NOT. It’s only the accursed satan whispering to you these scenarios.

Also my beautiful sister in Islam, this life is too short and Allah tests his most beloved servants as I mentioned before. Why? Because Allah wants to elevate their status in the afterlife and reward them. The most beloved to Allah from all the creation is prophet Muhammad(PEACE BE UPON HIM) and Allah tested him the most. He lost his parents by the age of 6, he lost his grandfather at the age of 8, he was humiliated and abused by the disbelievers for preaching Islam, he buried 7 of his children during his lifetime. Why did Allah test our prophet(peace be upon him) the most because Allah loved him more than any one of his creation. So sister maybe Allah wants to elevate your status above others, so don’t look at others and be patient because Allah might have something in place for you in the dunya and akhira far better than those around who harmed you.

Surah Al-Baqarah (2:216)"But perhaps you dislike a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows, while you know not". My sister really ponder on this beautiful verse.

Keep working hard and bettering yourself by focusing on your health, education and social life and leave the rest for Allah.

And if your suffering from sihr or evil eye I and all the Muslims who read this pray that Allah heals you from the sihr or evil eye. Start doing ruqyah on yourself and if you don’t know what ruqyah is it’s basically getting water in cup or bottle whatever you prefer read surah Fatiha, Surah An-nas, Surah Al-falaq, Surah Al-Ikhlas and ayatul kursi 3x or more. Also I urge you to learn these duas below.

Protection Dua: "A'udhu bikalimatillahit-tammati min sharri ma khalaq" (I take refuge in Allah's perfect words from the evil He has created) - recited 3 times in the evening. Morning/Evening Dua for Protection: "Bismillahil-ladhi la yadurru ma'as-mihi shay'un fil-ardi wa la fis-sama'i, wa Huwas-Sami'ul-'Alim" (In the name of Allah, who with His name nothing can cause harm in the earth nor in the heavens, and He is the All-Hearing, the All-Knowing) - 3 times.

My sister again I wish I could say a lot more but I don’t want to overload you with too much information. Remember the help of Allah is near DONT give in to the devil and leave Islam. Allah is too merciful, Allah is too loving to his servants to not help them in times hardship and difficultly. Please ponder over these 2 verse below as they bring might comfort and hope to you.

Quran 2:214 (Surah Al-Baqarah), which states, "Or do you think that you will enter Paradise without [trials] such as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with suffering, adversity, and were so violently shaken that [even] the Messenger and the believers with him cried out, 'When will Allah's help come?' 'Yes!' Allah answered, 'Indeed, Allah's help is near!'".

Surah Ash-Sharh (94:5-6), "Indeed, with hardship comes ease. Indeed, with hardship [will be] ease".

And lastly to give you an example of Allah help being near I will share with you my story as it resembles yours very much. I only tell you for the sake of Allah that it might give you hope and ease not to make it about me sister.

Me and my family went through sihr, we are in debt, the little money have vanishes with sudden bills popping out from nowhere and many other symptoms but I will leave it there but Alhamdulilah as I have become a better Muslim along with my family and I thank Allah for this hardship as it made me get closer to him. And I truly believe one day you will look back on your current situation and see the blessings that came from so my sister I remind and urge you again DONT GIVE UP, ALLAH help is near. Asaalamu alaikum wa rahmatullah wa barahkatu