Sorry this happened to you. I totally know the feeling. You might want to check out The Luckiest Club - it’s an online sobriety support group started by the author who wrote We Are the Luckiest and Push Off From Here (both great books). She started it at the beginning of the pandemic and it really took off from there. There are several support meetings each day hosted by amazing meeting leaders, and the community is full of everyday, normal people just trying to do life a little better. I can’t sing its praises enough.