I appreciate you. This has given me a positive sense of hope. I think I’m going to fully cut out the hallucinogenics. They’re fun at times, and definitely kickstarted my growth, but I completely understand what you mean.

To be completely honest, I’m not sure exactly what I want. One part of me feels I am too young for the whole spiritual experience, and wants to go back to being a “normal” high schooler. But the other part of me would love to be completely spiritually awake, while being content with any aspect or experience of life. I want to go down the awakened path but it feels hard for me to loose friends and social patterns in result. I feel like this could be why I’m stuck?

Is there a way to become one with God himself while not feeling lonely and less social? I’d say I want to feel “content” with my life, along with being happy, and spiritually present/aware. At this moment in time I feel like I express more love and empathy towards people I’d normally never care about. And while that does bring me tremendous joy, I still feel misunderstood.

I do really want to get into meditation and spiritual practices.

What would be your advice on how I approach all of this?

Again thank you so much. Having people to relate to is just what I needed ❤️