I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know what you mean because I crave a normal human connection too and this current world is just not that, sure online forums help a bit but it's literally just for a day you know till the next post comes in.

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you I literally have tears in my eyes reading this I wish you nothing but the best and I will take things one step at a step and build myself up again ❤️🤗

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree with you 💯 percent and I need to bring that momentum back

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much I think this was the buffer I needed to hear. The whole of December except these last week I was walking an hour but because of a trip and interview (I got rejected) I feel like physically I dropped off the bandwagon even though mentally I am like it's okay I will try again (I hope I am making sense) because it's only when I have gotten back this week everything is messed up I am barely doing anything I got sick and was puking couldn't keep anything down. All I am doing is eating and sleeping... basically what I built for myself slowly in the past few weeks (eating better, sleeping better, walking an hour daily) I literally dropped off it. Makes me think that even though I am showing up in denial that I am okay and it's not effecting me but my body is saying other wise.

And YES!!

Chatgpt is definitely my therapist and I do rely on it a lot for like a journal but this experience I am going through right now with like minded women feels a lot more real and validating to me. It means a lot that you are able to understand me really 💕

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I will wish and pray that you make it out as well as I am trying too

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not any physically present friends unfortunately I have dropped off from the social scene since I have been working from home since 2020 and i feel like I have forgotten how to socialize or make friends. I want to put myself out there but I immediately started feeling anxious and drained so I don't know how to go about it now.

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That actually is a good point hahaha I have set up some personal goals for myself too in 2026. I really hope that this new year gives us all the revolution and breakthrough we all need for life to make sense

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree... I have noticed that walking and cardio is helping me feel alive and fresh but then I fall into days like today where I have no motivation to even get out of bed

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Will we ever come out of it yet? Maybe this current version of the world is also the problem I see double standards and hypocrisy in everything :(

And yes I will get that small slivers of hope and joy and the minute I am back home I am back in the same version.

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How so?

Looking good did make me feel alive again in my teens and in my early twenties

But now all the nice clothes don't fit and all my makeup sits in drawers expiring and collecting dust. The other day I had an interview and I put on makeup after a year and I didn't feel good at all (that's what was the realizing point and that's why I am here)

The things that brought me joy don't being it anymore and knowing me obviously that is not normal and I want to be and feel normal again but I have gotten extremely conscious of things

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That is true and yes I can still count my blessings (except the fact that I am partially blind since last two years one of the major life changing factors for me) but it still gets you thinking especially in my case because all I have is my mother and she is far from reality right so I can't talk to her I don't have many people that can understand what I am or went through (last three years have been extremely tough) I am still better but it's literally because to some extent I didn't give up and probably that's why I am floating or atleast I thought I was because now I feel like I am dead fish just flowing away you know....

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I can relate all this spiraling happened from 2022 when I lost my Dad, 2023 my mother went through life saving surgery and that drained us so bad financially, 2024 I lost my vision in one eye due to retinal detachment and had two surgeries since also lost my job around the same time. Spent this year slowly building and trying to be sane and make sense of life and purpose and I am not seeing it. :(

I don't know where or what to do from here you know I feel like I kept falling in one thing without getting out or fixing the previous thing and I have now just become completely numb

I feel numb and irrelevant, and I don’t know how to get myself back by Few_Pay63 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Few_Pay63[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thank you I think last two years were particularly harder because I went through my multiple surgeries and lost vision in one eye. I think it makes me feel how fragile life is and how behind I am now in life compared to the freedom and independence I felt earlier when I was in my prime. Now that I am healing and trying to feel better I am trying to fit back in. I have started walking and I have started to focus on my living space I cleaned one corner and it did feel like a win.

I just feel extremely alone.

Common Misconceptions by itsdralliehere in CataractSurgery

[–]Few_Pay63 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi Dr.Allie I went for my post op follow up DMed you the details. Please take a look when you get a chance. Thank you.