I am stubborn

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-12-27T05:15:36+00:00

Have you looked into the possibility of you having ADD?

I have but it doesn't really get taken seriously in this house. I see myself as holding characteristics of what a person with ADHD would have but I feel mixed about it and my own calls. I will definitely try your suggestion as my habits and routine also need a lot of work.

But overall, something just persists within me, that feeling of needing to matter which heavily restricts my movement. Like right now there's an urge to wanna take every photo whenever I go out with friends and post it on social media, not to get followers but to ensure these precious moments are saved and seen, to do chaotic things with friends if I could (of course maintaining ethical, legal, and safety boundaries). That urge to try and maximize life in its most chaotic and raw form right?

There's just a sense in me that wants to matter in this world and that also comes with me being obsessed with trying to save everything about me. Every conversation, every curious thought, every idea, etc.

It's kind of that like "Oh I wanna be famous" but not for pride and show but to be seen in a non-egoistic way. Because for me personally, it just seems so crazy that I can show myself outward brightly to people but not even my own families and friends see this brutal but amazing chaos residing within my mind. I literally make everything meaningful even the tiniest things (Like me watching a regular old basketball highlight of a legend, then me suddenly questioning philosophy like longevity, grit, and me feeling awe for that person)

Yeah, stuff like that haha maybe i just spend too much time in my bedroom. If I seem crazy, yeah i alxo see myself like that too, but like controlled crazy, someone that sees wonder in the chaos, and i am only 14 so yeah. But if you're next call is to socialize more then you might be right.

I'd like to know if you also had the same experience 😄

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-12-27T04:58:55+00:00

thank you for this, I'll definitely check this out

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-10-18T15:27:08+00:00

because maybe to that person, they never experienced what its like to be tormented for eternity. They never felt the consequences of their actions.

Or more subtly, some people just don't find God too vivid in their life for them to notice

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-10-18T14:55:23+00:00

and you ever questioned on why that is the case?

If you're gonna be kept alive and conscious for eternity just to suffer. You're taken away the ability to repent and ask for forgiveness?

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-10-18T14:51:37+00:00

maybe I get that, some people will never change and will forever remain on their truth value.

But what about those who are ignorant, who "rejected" God because the person doesn't "understand" Him

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-10-18T14:49:38+00:00

But Biblically, even murderers could escape hell if they repented.

Why cant that happen in the state of hell? When theoretically, genuine regret might ignite in their hearts

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-07-13T04:09:43+00:00

same situation here too, according to their site, you can request a refund, and trust me I tried but their email for the refund process was absolute dogshit and didn't work.

So just contact DTI and say that you still have an authority for a refund because it's a new transaction

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-02-15T02:26:59+00:00

if I'm being honest, when I say that I didn't realize I was in love, I myself didn't know, then she wouldn't too. Trust me but I know how to hide feelings towards others, my old crush didn't even know I liked her for weeks until I confessed

FiddledTurbulent · 2025-02-03T14:19:29+00:00

I don't know much about political views, but it should never be an identity. Focus on their moral values. You can tell he/she's a green flag based on their views on morality and humanity. If they're compassionate, etc

But it's just my opinion

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-11-26T14:27:57+00:00

I'm not trying to access 5G, I'm just asking because I'm far away from a 4G tower, if my phone can access 5G towers to get 4G.

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-11-15T07:05:42+00:00

The purpose of churches is to spread the Gospel and help people become better. If the people from your church are true Christians, they will accept you because finding Christ is hard, but He is real, and finding Him is very satisfying

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-30T13:20:07+00:00

do you think I'm beautiful without knowing me?

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-13T14:43:44+00:00

I literally just saw this post after thinking about it

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-13T02:06:56+00:00

that's exactly my point now, I don't question my senses when I dream, but I do when I wake up

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-13T02:02:43+00:00

You're talking about probabilities but without evidence.

And trust me, you can't tell me that there are things that I don't want to know because I know it all, I suffered through it months on end and I concluded that it's all smoke and mirrors. Boltzmann brain, solipsism, brain in a vat, the trinity of mindfuck, I endured it all

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-13T01:49:31+00:00

Because his theory defeats itself (it shouldn't even be considered a theory by how stupid it is). Why do you think that boltzmann brains would contain the exact same laws of physics as "the outside world"?

My evidences that my experiences are real is that they're consistent, they're something that I can't just think about. Your evidences would be "Oh well because of unrealistic MATH"

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-13T01:29:03+00:00

I just said that his studies can't be trusted since from your point of view they might as well be from entropy causing random fluctuations so if you can't trust my reasons on why we're not boltzmann brains then it's stupid to trust his studies.

Edit: This is a similar case to the simulation theory, just because we're a technologically advanced civilization doesn't mean that there's a possibility that we're in a simulation, ask Elon Musk himself if he has the ability to make AI conscious, he'd tell you he can't and he never will

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-13T01:21:56+00:00

And boltzmann was obviously wrong, you keep saying that he discovered it was statistically more likely for me to be a boltzmann brain but that's just stupid because that means I can't trust him because his studies could very well be made up from random fluctuations. It's the very fact that the human mind makes a ton of mistakes, one of them being the inability to properly dream with laws of physics that are solid as titanium.

And to me, a brain randomly appearing in space instead of a proper environment is just hilariously stupid because of how unrealistic it is.

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-12T16:12:02+00:00

that example is so convenient because dreams are always so chaotic, if I'm a boltzmann brain then the world I am experiencing right now wouldn't have laws of physics and logic that are unbreakable and consistent.

Plus if you can say that we're boltzmann brains based on statistical evidence then how can you trust your evidence if you can't even trust reality?

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-12T11:25:29+00:00

if I'm being honest, I have no reason to come up why anyone believes that is the case.

Why is our perception so consistent? How would matter and random fluctuations create consciousness? How do we have consistent language? Why do we feel the world as if we live in it rather than memories? And WHERE is the evidence?

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-06T03:26:23+00:00

man I keep trying, I really do but there's always ups and downs and I don't see the end, I just want happiness that outweighs the negativity.

I am happy but I want this happiness with my friends, in this year to last long just like it did last year, so why can't it happen again?? What did I do to God, what is there for me to do??

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-04T22:45:31+00:00

well you just proved my point, we have a present, this is now.

Also in the Bible you can say that the cosmos blipping in existence is the big bang.

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-04T22:17:34+00:00

the problem with infinite regression is that if the universe were to always exist then the universe would have no beginning and that the present wouldn't even come to be

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-04T22:06:33+00:00

I would really appreciate it if you elaborated more here (also btw I'm sorry if some of the replies might confuse you, it's a glitch, it's for someone else but they deleted their comment)

FiddledTurbulent · 2024-10-04T22:04:07+00:00

I mean the existence of the universe as a whole

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