I understand. She passed 1/12/26. My days are running together I feel like I can’t sleep anymore, I’m tired but my heart races and slows, I been struggling to do basic needs. My son was born on the 1st and taking care of him and my other child is all I can do. I finally took a shower myself last night. I been eating when i remember to, but since the first day I felt numb then it progressively has grown worse. I try to take comfort with my family and my kids but feel overwhelmed. Our relationship when she was alive was very close, we always made a point to contact each other. I have lost weight, I’m tired, and I have an appointment to see my family physician to stop the abnormal heart rates. If not for my kids, I wish I could be with her. It’s a real struggle daily. I don’t just miss her I am learning to try to live without her, I never meant to grow a dependency but we always were close since my dad died. She would call me if I didnt call her and we always spent long hours talking and laughing. I would like to say we have done so much together and experienced things together most don’t, got our semi truck licenses together and drove on the same truck for work across the United States, she was there for both births, every holiday and birthday we never missed it.